Sunday, October 31, 2004
hmmm, a lazy sunday morning, didn't really feel like waking up.. but it's ready 12 pm in the afternoon, if i still don't get up, my dad, will blast the speaker system man, thats what he actaully always do, to make me and my sis up.. coz really damned loud man.. coz my daddy loves to watch those like blasting movies..
bloggin at this hr of time is realli a dumb thing to do man.. coz i am toking to juice, toking on msn with desiree, den writting my blog..
ai ya.. i miss u.. i miss u.. i miss u.. i miss little kid.. i miss von alot... haizz..
wat the 2 of u thinking??
wat is von thinking??
wat is little kid thinking??
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Saturday, October 30, 2004
hmm, did not go any where todae, but stayed at hme, becoz its weekend, ppl, u shld noe, i don't usually like to go out on weekends, to me its a family dae, and moreover, been out like mon to friday, i'm sick of it, sort of, woke up abt 12 plus, on my hp, first saw, juicy message, said: c-jae, i'm bored, let's go out. I'm like, no, i want to stay at hm. she said like why must u stay at hme. i said: becoz i just want to stay at hme. she said:why?. at this point, i'm rather pissed [ no offence] but y must juice always asked so much qn?, 0_o, i just don't like it, u noe, [sorri realli no offence], even my mom don't ask me where i am, i don't find that u have the right to ask me that.. i noe, u're my frenz and bud, its like i will be safe, where ever i am, the most i will report to my gf, if i do have one, or my gp will ask me that onli.. i am not biased.. becoz i feel spied or uneasy when ppl ask me when i am?, why are u there?, what are u doing there?, i don't like it..
Another thing i don't like is, when i say i will sms u, i will, u need not need to sms me to tell me ur at my hse downstairs, becoz i need some time on my own, i don't like ppl to rush me on certain stuff, okay, u might be bored, but don't rush me, i will get cranky, and will make ur dae sucks too, That's c-jae la, she is totally dumb, with an attitude of that..
Something i hate abt myself is, i do get tired some ppl, if i c ya like mon to fri, and sat, have to c ya again, i will faint, becoz i think i c ya everydae, and u keep giving attitude.. and me trying v hard to make u laugh and try v hard to entertain u, i will get sick of it, and get cranky .. this is what i hate abt myself.. *must change man..
i miss u like crazy, u noe?
i still have feelings for u? u noe?
but i donnoe my feelings toward little kid and u?
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Friday, October 29, 2004
todae i woke up at 7 just to tell my mom tat i am dining out, and when back to slp, but check my poor fone was still charging, and saw 1 message received, was scared, and when back to sleep, and set my alarm to 9.30 so tat i can call my sister to tell her to call the tele marketing company, so i woke up at 9.30, and rang her hse and hp, for fucking 30 mins, was so pissed, wanted to go back to sleep, den fucking stomach, make me shit 3 times, until i as so weak, and when back to sleep, den hse fone rang again, was my bud, i took my hp with me, and told her -imu- sms back, she asked me to c, i was like no.. den she asked me to forward to her fast, so tat she can help me c, i was like forget it i will do it myself, and saw -imu- sms, she replied me at 7:58:44 am, and after that i asked her a question, she nv replied me? what was that supposed to mean man? becoz she isn't a rude gal i know, i was like half- dead toking to my bud, she still can ask me why am i so tired? although we slept around the same time ytd, but wat she did was playing games, feed dogs, kana nag by grandma.. me!! i was hell outside like 9 am, walking to my sis hse, den took a long fucking ride to changi airport, den cyrus called said there's a shoe promoter, so we nv went for the 2nd interview in the airport, but instead to ubi road, for the shoe interview, took a puff before like going back to amk, the cigarette was like fucking crooked can, coz its like in my sling, hahaha, funni ya, den went to town, tot that borders would have jobs for us, we went to the music department first, went around listening to songs, some songs are just so dumb, the cover was like dead alive thing, den i listened to one disc said in red: Be caution, don't get scared by the song sort of thing, i was like dumb la, its not scared and find it rather holy instead man, den went to the counter to asked the man, he said the interview ws ended last week, wat the fuck right.. den we miss SI becoz of the 'thing' and plus i have walked 5 times from wisma to fareast and to cinnileisure, nv rest, so hw can my dumb bud compared man...
Den i put down the fone with my bud coz i reallli to tired, went some where far to slp, when to the master bed room, 12 plus nearly 1, my sis called me, asked me wanna go down to amk station to get a factory job there, went there, fuck la, the guy tot we invisible izzit, we did asked me can, so screwed, i pulled my sis with me to take train, to kovan, met my gp and hanny, gp look rather pretty, she said i was kinda smart, coz i'm like wearing button shirt, becoz i tot we'll be miting later, so tot will go monks, but nv, she is with hanny, nvm, coz she v long nv meet hanny ya, so left them alone and went to kovan with sister, nv saw anione i noe there, peace, haha. went to take fags from sis, smoke with sister, den later smoke with sis again on the stairs.. bud called, shit my hp spoiling soon man, [ppl, this part is dry la], lets skip it.
Went to sister hse for dinner, we bought sparkling juice and some chips, ate her mom home-cooked food, was delicious man, drank sparkling juice, not bad, sat down and watch vcd, and someone message me.. guess who? its little kid, she fell down from the stairs, and injured her toes, kinda poor thing and drama to me la, every dae she bound to get injured, i don mean to mistrust her, but why will someone get injured everydae??? are u trying to get more of my attention? just becoz i asked u ytd whether -imu- is sick? and u replied like i think so? wat happen to the 2 of u? am i the prob? i noe u like me.. i do like u too.. but the things u do, make my frenz suspicion of u get higher, and makes me ponder wat u trying to do.. becoz i find that its not funni to scare ur love ones.. although i maybe a sadist, and if this is the way u trying to do, it makes me scared of u more.. scared to like u, when at first i do like u, and now i have been thinking abt -imu- and not u.. u scared me...
i want to know why u nv reply my nxt sms?
i want to know wat u thinking?
i want u to noe i still love u?
i want to tell u, i still want u back..
but i got no courage, becoz u hurt me once
And now i am confused with u and little kid..
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Thursday, October 28, 2004
profile abt c-jae
cjae is a damned naive bung man, and innocent [i nv do anithing with gals], shy, a real dumb bung man, mental,a real sadist man,humorous [one to this bud of mine call juicy onli] also when it is real funny den everyone laugh, but this bud of mine, reali have lots of like laughing cells ya, nearly forgoteen i have v bad memories man, i will take maybe the whole dae to think again wat u tok to me last night .. i am a easily psycho person man, a damned emo too,a good listener, but a bad advisor, quite a lucky boy to my gp, a good punch bag, won't easily get cranky [think so] but must limit ya, v thick skinned, i am really naive man, but i do realli hate this word, becoz i am 16 so long, first time i heard from my sis and frenz saying me naive, OMG.. and rather dumb too, these are really my weak points main so must write it out and remind myself, but i doubt there's ani use to me, becoz of my pea brains did absorb, but just don want to use it.. and me love to be free, as in i don like ppl to ask to much abt where mt whereabouts, becoz i felt spied,and i HATE insects like flys man, whenever they fly, they will either knock onto my nose or eyes.. weird man
todae, lets got right to the point of the story, i am psycho man, by this 2 ppl, sorri no offence to ppl who believe the christ, but i nearly said i going to believe the christ, they pyshco-ed me like when i was in sec one if i'm not wrong, was psycho-ed by this lady, and she asked me to go to their service, i went, for so long now, den i noe that i went for a johovah service, and when for their bible study some more, OMG, i am so scared now man, i just prayed to god, just want god to make singapore a safe country after looking at the newspaper, and i noe, i am the god's worst creation, becoz, i am crook myself, i pray this to god becoz i want everyone in singapore to be fine and safe and sound, and i noe i will go to hell to suffer, i am not scared, wat i did when i am alive, is all sin, i shall take it back when i am dead too, i don't want god, the purest, the most innocent ppl to bear for me..
Heard that u're sick,
Donnoe to sms u, to ask ur fine or not,
i'm just confused,
should i?
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Wednesday, October 27, 2004
i'm tired of being what u want me to be
feeling so faithless lost under the surface
don't noe wat u're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to u
[caught in the undertow,just caught in the undertow]
i've become so numb i can't feel u there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like u
can't u see that u're smothering me
holding too tightly afraid to lose control
cause everything that u thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of u
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
every step that i take is another mistake to u
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
and every second i waste is more than i can take
i've become so numb i can't feel u there
i've become so tired so much more aware
im becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like u
and i noe i may end up failing too
but i noe u were just like me
with someone disappointed in u
i've become so numb i can't feel u there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like u
and i noe i may end up failing too
but i noe u were just like me
with someone disappointed in u
i've become so numb i can't feel u there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like u
i've become so numb i can't feel u there
tired of being wat u want me to be
i've become so numb i can't feel u there
tired of being wat u want me to be...
cuz we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect
now its's just too late and
we can't go back
i'm sorry
i can't be perfect
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Tuesday, October 26, 2004
hmmm, finally got my blogspot, alot of things happened, but donnoe where to start and hw to start, ytd, i went to town wanted to give this juicy a surprise, ended up she is not surprise, haha, i wore our sch uni [ guys uni ], i find i look smart in joy's house so wore it for interview in the airport, and meet juice in town, but we were late for abt 40 mins, becoz when we were queueing up for tickets, den saw this guy, he seems like he doesnt noe hw to buy the tickets, so i went to him like: sir, u need help? at first he say he wan to go shenton way? den me and joy were like searching, den suddenly he pointed serangoon, helo~ there's so much diff. can, den we sat on the same train, den this caucasian also asked us, as if we are some road directory man, can't this tourists just look around the train and u sure can find where they wanna go ya.. den i am thinking if onli they have such jobs ya, its kinda easy, they can hire us for this job, hahaha, brought them to Doby ghaut, woah the lugguage is damned heavy man, although i am chubby, but this joy is like so tall and huge, he shld help me ya, nvm just want to act man ya, haha, since i already wore the uni must be man ya.. den reached somerset, come out den at the traffic lights, was looking around and caught a cedar gal at the opp. traffic light, den she told her frenz, den everyone turn and look at me, make me so kuku, so i turn my heqd and look abt, until the green man is out, i walk pass them, they were like giggling and staring at me can, den reached spinelli, saw juice, she wasn't even surprise at all, but in her blog she said i look weird, den saw my classmate, den we went to look for tiffie, at tommy, she was shocked, at first she did not recognised me, hahaha the second time she look she was shocked and burst out laughing, hmmm, den she nv fast todae, so she called us when we were on our way to cinni, so met her at yoshi[ taka], den she started toking abt the weird dream, funni la, and the 3 of us have weird dreams... i dreamt of -imu- , to me is the weird and night mare, becoz i like little kid, ya the little kid scared me man, donnoe wat she trying to prove.. sae her stitch open.. woah.. scary!!!, den send juicy hme, played with neo and dusty, poor me, the dogs trampled my toes, *pain*, den went back to mit tiffie, send her hme, tok alot on the bus, den joy call her [kabee], den we kept disturbing, idiot right, hahaha, den tiffie can still go back to where we stop, pro sia, den i was adjusting my pants, den tiffie kept laughing n making lots of noise, den the uncle beside me kept staring at me.. Till now, sorri frenz but i still donnoe my feelings man.. u all do make sense.. but my dumb brain, cant take in wat u all say..
-imu- i miss little kid too, but everyone just tell me u 2 are'nt the right gal..
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