Sunday, November 28, 2004
when we were in cold war, i tot abt u, rather miss u.. although tat time we keep sms-ing, but its abt 2 mths i nv c u.. miss u loads.. but quarrel with ya becoz u became overboard in the things u sms me, u scared me most of the time.. at first u made me want u, i even want to ask u, but my frenz and budz stop me, becoz of some reasons, now u smsed me, at first i was already confused with my love life, now even more confuse..
alexis: hey i met a waitress dat lok like u and remind me of u. i realise dat i miss u
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im sorry for shouting and yelling at u, im sorri coz i didnt respect u as someone old, im sorrie for every single thing dat i had eva done wrong to u
c-jae: did u send to the wrong person? u didnt yell at me yea.. erm rather funni.. do i look like so mani things to ya? tat time u told me.. u saw a bird n reminds u of me and now that waitress.. wats the smth u have to live with everydae?
alexis: its just smth i just have to live with everydae, i hope u find a way to 4give..
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hey.. im not a perfect.i didnt noe true happiness till i met u. u teach me what a smile realli everydae coz of u..
c-jae: hmmm glad to hear tat.. its good ya happy n smiling.. i don think i make u realise.. im just helping u on da way.. :)
alexis: even when i was feeling down n full of of problems i still smile coz u aways tell me to look da bright side..
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but dere comes a dae when i did a mistake n my whole world came crashing down, n i realli learn wad pain reali is coz i i lose u
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its sad dat afta so much you had done for me n onli until todae i realise hw impt u are to me..
yea.. im dumb making this decision dat i noe for sure dat im going to regret big time im my life..
c-jae: erm.. wat decision
alexis: i made my decision n dis is it, it end here, my faults lead to tis n its all my fault, n im sorry .. u will always be this special person in my heart..
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but its all has to end here.. my guilt has come thru, n u won, i guess dis is it, i sae it properly tis time. gd bye.. i miss u already.. thanks for everything..
c-jae: right at this moment.. im v glad tat u realli realise your mistake.. means u grew up yea.. no need to sae goodbye yea.. i said before.. no matter wat my mei did.. she will still my mei.. okay.. still bro n sis? i don wanna lose u..
alexis: its too bad u want it to be dat way but i dont,, i cant believe im crying but im sorrie.. ur dis amazing person i met in my life but i cant go thru a frenship with faults
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hey at da stroke of midnight everything dat happen in da past will be da past.. n i will lead life like i have known u in my life b4.. i wish u a happy n bright life ahead of u..
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im sorry i have to do this . bye bro
c-jae:haiz i donnoe wat u trying to sae n doing all this thing? im not mad at u.. wat past is past.. like u say.. we can start all over again as fren yea.. everything is possible kid..
alexis: u will nv noe true happiness..
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if i didnt have msg u last night n say sorry we still would have da cold war going on
c-jae: ya true.. but its all becoz we treasure our frenship yea.. sometime i feel tat its weird .. not to sms u yea.. coz u will keep me accompanied..
alexis: yeah, i noe.. usually when im home i always have company n dats u but its like dat person is gone now..
c-jae: wat gone can be found back again yea.. but im not gone.. im back instead.. to acc each other..
alexis: but dats where ua re wrong.. to me wads lost will neva come back.. if a relationship turns sour once it have to remain sour n dat u do cant make it okay again..
c-jae: nth is impossible.. unless u want it dat way .. i respect ur decision.. but i always believe.. ever1 deserve a second chance.. some more ur my sis..
alexis: i don deserve a second chance..
c-jae: u don have the right t say tat.. u don judge urself like dat.. u noe.. the judging is up to me.. n i want u back.. so no more protesting man..
alexis: you are making me cry..
c-jae: huh.. i don mean to make u cry.. don cry okay.. i will be here for ya.. but if crying make u feel better.. cry.. i will be here to wipe ur tears..
alexis: it makes me like da bad guy.. hmmff..
c-jae: :P nahx ur not da bad guy.. just tat young n mischev one haha.. yea don angry yea.. since everything is fine.. well be bro n sis agian yea..
alexis: i donnoe abt that..
c-jae: abt wat? stop pondering,, we are okay.. still bro n sis.. i don care..
alexis: but i care.. but on condition
c-jae: wat condition? this kid ar.. name ur price? haha jk.. sae wat u wanna sae yea..
alexis: nth.. i just don wan to lose u again.. u mean so much to me nw dat i realise.. n dat i realli love u v much..
c-jae: okay.. i believe.. okay its kinda late.. better sleep early yea.. miss u loads.. hope ta cya soon.. i mean it.. nitez.. take care..
this is hw i end the dae.. and the next morning.. i receive 2 sms.. 7 plus from alexis.. and 8 plus from von.. im vexed man.. i donnoe wat to do.. haizz..
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Sunday, November 21, 2004
wake up in the morning so early although ytd slept so late, coz i think i neglected my family man, so went have bf with mommy and daddy.. so cute la this couple.. everything was fine until now la.. tmr is my dae, my gp is missing la.. i called her 3 times n sms her.. nv reply.. argghh.. its worrying me man.. im mumbling so that i hope god can protect her now.. make me scared man.. gonna send her hme everydae le la.. wa~ make me scared until i nearly choke when drinking water man.. where are u? where are u? where are u? where are u ? where are u? where are u? where are u? where are u ? where are u? where are u? where are u? where are u? where are u? where are u ? where are u? where are u? where are u?
its 12 midnight.. its 22 u are supposed to wish me man.. wat the fuck.. she sms me.. wa lau scared me lke hell lor.. lucky i not alone.. my fren was trying to calm me down.. if not i would have rush or sneak to kovan man.. den go there also donnoe do wat.. maybe stay at her block till morning man.. wa~ phew~.. watever.. every scary moment i scared myself is over.. its my dae.. happie 22.. yeah 22..
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Thursday, November 18, 2004
start working already.. everyone is going to work.. my fren jack is coming back, my bud is coming back .. josh... my pal is coming back and im working at this moment.. haizz.. no money la.. must work... for my future galfren.. lazy to blog man... miss em' lik hell.. haiz.. where is the love?
this is just a v short entry.. god wat u trying to tell me? is she the one? or M is the one?
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Monday, November 15, 2004
im scared..v scared... maybe not scared.. but wat is this little kid trying to do man.. she messaged me like this: even if i nvr got to c u again, i want to say dis b4 i go, you r special to me n made a diff. in my life n i truly cherish u. u r my onli one. i love u dearly*.. i nv reply her.. she sms me ard 9 plus am, i am now in shock, she is a psycho, i'm scared she do anything stupid to herself, i donnoe.. wat a sms.. becoz ytd she did sms me, i didnt reply den todae this type of sms..
lets put this aside first...
wat the hell, now heavy rain, i am supposed to take my taphoid inject todae, haiz who asked me wake up so damned bloody late, yeah gp got back her hp, yes can sms her, but hse nv reply me.. i think she start work soon so nv reply... haizz... im scared but no one is there for me except my kuku com..
i like -imu-, i don like *little kid*, u are psycho, a back stabber..
i find lindy not bad.. nice gal..
i like the gal at my store.. she is my type of gal, is she my fruit?
omg.. think abt this make me happy..
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Saturday, November 13, 2004
was toking to my gp just now, haiz.. she v sad la.. v poor thing also.. coz just now working hurt herself.. v poor thing right... hmmm but the way she says is v cute and funni la..basically todae i gonna blog abt is, my bud [ juice], when i was smoking downstair with joy just now, she called me all of a sudden to go her hse.. i'm like for wat? she said:to catch the damned cockroach in her hse.. okay ppl, i noe that i not scare of this pest, but do i realli look like one cockroach catcher to u!!!! although it is always me who catch the cockroaches in the chalet, doesn't mean i have to catch it everytime right.. hahaha.. if u are there.. to hear my budz screaming away on the phone, from soem where jumping to another side.. u will deifintely laugh till jaw drop man.. thats it babes..
nothing much to tok abt... becoz its saturdae... its family dae.. tmr is HARI RAYA... SELMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL!!! enjoy..
i didnt sms u, hw are u doing?
shld be fine la.
such a hyper child ya..
i miss u...
tot abt the memories we had this afternoon when watching this movie..
lame right... haizzz... get back to my gp present ya..
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Wednesday, November 10, 2004
ytd i knew alot of things man.. little kid u this fucker.. i got to be mean.. stop trying to back stab ppl can.. y must u back stab -imu- can.. u are a total loser.. i maybe dumb.. but i got smart gp, budz, sis joy okay.. if u really so despo to find a stead and so when one guy went to ask u ar and u go stead.. den break when me and k**** both like u den want to chose right.. wait long ya... i'm not naive okay.. just care to much for u.. make me feel a fool and so dumb can.. if u think thats v fun ar.. don't blame me when i play u back.. becoz u force me too.. becoz i want u to learn ur fucking lesson.. don't try me..
ytd i am v happy actualli, i wore purps t shirt to find my gp, suddenly cyrus sms me asked me to call my gp.. omg.. my bud and gp is crying can... i'm like so jelly... donnoe wat to do man.. so i settle my gp first.. haha on the bus met banana.. my mommy!! miss her so much man.. she is still so funni.. so cute.. i love her man!! hahas.. den gp wore until v orangy.. but still so pretty ya.. but she cried.. so as gp.. i try all means to make her happy ya.. den at night.. i emo man... they started to tok abt me and -imu- i'm like haizz.. smoke one after another stick man.. coz sis and gp keep fighting like that man.. den i acted like one drunkard..
okay write until here first... omg im late.. die..
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Tuesday, November 09, 2004
hmm todae, was v tired coz slp at 3 am ytd and woke up kinda early man.. 11 plus.. but still pig la.. went out with joy.. first to get cigarette den sudden rain.. fuck sia.. need to stay at one of blocks .. just came back from chalet, haven been toking to him, haiz... poor thing la, his mom gonna sell away the hse.. he will moved with his dad to some where, hope not too far man.. if not i cannot find him ar... i will be v sad.. he is my sister man... went to beach road got 1 t shirt its purps.. my gp favourite colour.. haha.. gonna surprised her tmr man.. coz i nv liked that colour.. den bought 1 polo t shirt and a berps.. kinda nice and cheap.. rather broke.. wanted to get one button shirt.. but a bit too fitting.. think of wearing it to monks.. think abt it first.. maybe get long sleeve.. more smart ya.. den joy said: u so short, hand also so short don't find long sleeve la.. den i rolled my eyes.. hahaha...
Then just now was chatting with my gp on da fone.. at first i saw private no. tot it was joy or little kid .. den answer.. den i said:who's this? coz my gp sounded cute so don't realli recognised.. and she dont usualli call me ya.. was toking.. den we tok abt little kid.. tok abt this i will get agitated man.. nor, if ur not a les, pls don't come play me or klenn okay.. i noe what ur trying to do man.. ur cute, ur appealing but so UR FUCKING ATITUDE, and the desperate feeling of u to get a stead and using ppl.. makes me look down on u man... totally man... i will nv fall into ur trap again.. wat stitches, eyes kana hit, pls la... i may be dumb.. but i have smart frenz can.. And y is von asking gp to tell me where she works? and y gp all of a sudden ask me do i have a gal in mind? i dont want a gal yet coz i dont c anione i like so wait for the fruit ya... And i don't have feelings for nor animore.. and tiny feeling for von onli... feel like waiting for lindy.. kinda a nice gal... hmm.. don want to think so much.. if the fruit comes... i will take... if not i will wait
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo
It started when we were younger
You were mine my booNow another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
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Monday, November 08, 2004
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Sunday, November 07, 2004
heh peepx i'm back ya.. tired and injured.. shall write my blog 2mr.. sad la leandra is out.. almost teared.. haha jking.. also forget hw to tear man.. STM is getting worst la.. samuel is so cute la.. juice family members are cute man.. esp. grandma.. STM.. den blur but smart woman.. AND PLS PEEPX.. ME AND JUICE ARE NOT STEAD CAN.. she is a damned bloody STRAIGHT gal who onli love human with whiner.. not gals acting like guys.. AND ME, LOVE GALS MAN.. must make it clear man.. alot of peepx misunderstood.. although used to it.. but not good ya. even her childhood fren tot so... yawnz... i want to slp ya..continue my adventures, during this chalet man.. ciaoz peepx..
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Tuesday, November 02, 2004
yesterdae was watching tv, hugging one of the roller chair.. and thinking why aren't no one sitting infront of me? i realli hope -imu- is sitting infront of me, wearing my pull over, touching my face, like u did before to me, miss u so much man.. u noe? i doubt.. the thoughts make me feel like tearing now, but telling myself what for.. u're not mine anymore, i can't get u back anymore, i want to give u up now, u nv reply me, what are u thinking when u saw that message? why never reply? have been pondering and pondering.. never stop pondering man...
Another thing i asked abt myself, am i really happy always inside out? or just that the burden that i want everyone happy that's why i am happy??? but i don want to care abt this ya, wat for, i'm sort of numb.. just want everyone around me happy, i will be happy.. although deep in me i noe, i may not be.. but i always believe, 1 [me] suffer, rather den everyone moody right.. hehe c-jae always right.. coz she's smart.. hahaha.. sacrifice is wat i learnt so far..
i have decided to give u up becoz isaw ur friendster, i don't noe wat u mean.. who that mean to? i don want to noe.. no point, why not i give u up, and go for little kid.. but thinking abt wyn's situation, make me don't feel like going for little kid too, but i really miss little kid alot ya.. although last time the things she done, is betraying frenz, donnoe y she does that, frenz say becoz she wants me, but i feel becoz she doesnt want me to be hidden in the dark, who noes? onli she does, i realli miss her alot ya.. hope thurs can meet little kid, den we go beach look at the sunrise.. realli realli hope can c her ya, den we can see the sunrise together, very long nv c the sunrise man..
i want to give u up..
since u love so mani bungs..
make up ur mind pls..
i don want u to hurt urself or other bungs man..
i miss little kid..
i miss u..
should i just concentrate for u onli???
give me sometime to think
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Monday, November 01, 2004
I don't know wat time it is, but i heard my favourite song man.. its not the remix, its i don't wanna know, this song always describe my feelings man.. And eaamon too, F**k it.. When ever i asked my gp to hear, she will say something like that: y everytime u listen to radio, will listen to SUCH songs.. coz she think these songs bring my morale for love down, i think ya..
i find that, if no one remind me of -imu- or little kid, i don't really think of them.. what does this means? feeling fade? *scratch head, but when ppl say i will get agitated.. and wat does that mean too? but sometime something makes me reminds of the 2 of them but i noe either i can have one, or none.. *sigh, don want care la, i think its good to be single, and wait for my fruit, i saw this message b4, 'god will either say yes to your prayer, or no, or ask u to wait, so that he will give u the best'. Thats y i am waiting now.. think god will give me something better... impatient won't lead me to any where, as far as i noe, becoz i learnt my lesson twice..
And 1 thing i really need to do, maybe is realli have to do, is find juicy my bud, a bf as soon as possible man, if not, everydae she will call me, tell me things of what she feel, or ask me out la, or joy will call me every day to ask me out also, or call me to talk to me.. this 2 are a match man, but too bad one is sister, the other is straight, juicy like to depend on one friend alot, feel sad la, she and gp like not talking man, and also gp working, not like last time, got probs, can get it done straight away, but i noe, there will be a time we will sit down again and talk again... joy, he is v nice frenz, sometime donnoe how to reject him on somethings, also can say a fren always there for ya, but the weird probs in me is, i don't like ppl to stick to me to much, i will get sick of ya.. okay i think i mentioned it before.. just like some time i like to be alone..
hmmm, seems like very long never c gp like that, miss gp la. den miss alot of ppl at kovan macs, hmmm, don want to go there, coz wat for? so weird.. no school.. no need study, go there lik very dumb... shall blog till here, will continue tomorrow.. always unexpectd thing happen.. hahaha.. hope it will be good ones plsssss....
Never think of the 2 of u
what does that mean?
fading? can't be ya..
no point thinking so much?
do any of u miss me? :(
thats wat i am wondering?
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