Sunday, November 28, 2004
when we were in cold war, i tot abt u, rather miss u.. although tat time we keep sms-ing, but its abt 2 mths i nv c u.. miss u loads.. but quarrel with ya becoz u became overboard in the things u sms me, u scared me most of the time.. at first u made me want u, i even want to ask u, but my frenz and budz stop me, becoz of some reasons, now u smsed me, at first i was already confused with my love life, now even more confuse..
alexis: hey i met a waitress dat lok like u and remind me of u. i realise dat i miss u
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im sorry for shouting and yelling at u, im sorri coz i didnt respect u as someone old, im sorrie for every single thing dat i had eva done wrong to u
c-jae: did u send to the wrong person? u didnt yell at me yea.. erm rather funni.. do i look like so mani things to ya? tat time u told me.. u saw a bird n reminds u of me and now that waitress.. wats the smth u have to live with everydae?
alexis: its just smth i just have to live with everydae, i hope u find a way to 4give..
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hey.. im not a perfect.i didnt noe true happiness till i met u. u teach me what a smile realli everydae coz of u..
c-jae: hmmm glad to hear tat.. its good ya happy n smiling.. i don think i make u realise.. im just helping u on da way.. :)
alexis: even when i was feeling down n full of of problems i still smile coz u aways tell me to look da bright side..
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but dere comes a dae when i did a mistake n my whole world came crashing down, n i realli learn wad pain reali is coz i i lose u
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its sad dat afta so much you had done for me n onli until todae i realise hw impt u are to me..
yea.. im dumb making this decision dat i noe for sure dat im going to regret big time im my life..
c-jae: erm.. wat decision
alexis: i made my decision n dis is it, it end here, my faults lead to tis n its all my fault, n im sorry .. u will always be this special person in my heart..
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but its all has to end here.. my guilt has come thru, n u won, i guess dis is it, i sae it properly tis time. gd bye.. i miss u already.. thanks for everything..
c-jae: right at this moment.. im v glad tat u realli realise your mistake.. means u grew up yea.. no need to sae goodbye yea.. i said before.. no matter wat my mei did.. she will still my mei.. okay.. still bro n sis? i don wanna lose u..
alexis: its too bad u want it to be dat way but i dont,, i cant believe im crying but im sorrie.. ur dis amazing person i met in my life but i cant go thru a frenship with faults
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hey at da stroke of midnight everything dat happen in da past will be da past.. n i will lead life like i have known u in my life b4.. i wish u a happy n bright life ahead of u..
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im sorry i have to do this . bye bro
c-jae:haiz i donnoe wat u trying to sae n doing all this thing? im not mad at u.. wat past is past.. like u say.. we can start all over again as fren yea.. everything is possible kid..
alexis: u will nv noe true happiness..
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if i didnt have msg u last night n say sorry we still would have da cold war going on
c-jae: ya true.. but its all becoz we treasure our frenship yea.. sometime i feel tat its weird .. not to sms u yea.. coz u will keep me accompanied..
alexis: yeah, i noe.. usually when im home i always have company n dats u but its like dat person is gone now..
c-jae: wat gone can be found back again yea.. but im not gone.. im back instead.. to acc each other..
alexis: but dats where ua re wrong.. to me wads lost will neva come back.. if a relationship turns sour once it have to remain sour n dat u do cant make it okay again..
c-jae: nth is impossible.. unless u want it dat way .. i respect ur decision.. but i always believe.. ever1 deserve a second chance.. some more ur my sis..
alexis: i don deserve a second chance..
c-jae: u don have the right t say tat.. u don judge urself like dat.. u noe.. the judging is up to me.. n i want u back.. so no more protesting man..
alexis: you are making me cry..
c-jae: huh.. i don mean to make u cry.. don cry okay.. i will be here for ya.. but if crying make u feel better.. cry.. i will be here to wipe ur tears..
alexis: it makes me like da bad guy.. hmmff..
c-jae: :P nahx ur not da bad guy.. just tat young n mischev one haha.. yea don angry yea.. since everything is fine.. well be bro n sis agian yea..
alexis: i donnoe abt that..
c-jae: abt wat? stop pondering,, we are okay.. still bro n sis.. i don care..
alexis: but i care.. but on condition
c-jae: wat condition? this kid ar.. name ur price? haha jk.. sae wat u wanna sae yea..
alexis: nth.. i just don wan to lose u again.. u mean so much to me nw dat i realise.. n dat i realli love u v much..
c-jae: okay.. i believe.. okay its kinda late.. better sleep early yea.. miss u loads.. hope ta cya soon.. i mean it.. nitez.. take care..
this is hw i end the dae.. and the next morning.. i receive 2 sms.. 7 plus from alexis.. and 8 plus from von.. im vexed man.. i donnoe wat to do.. haizz..
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