Tuesday, November 02, 2004
yesterdae was watching tv, hugging one of the roller chair.. and thinking why aren't no one sitting infront of me? i realli hope -imu- is sitting infront of me, wearing my pull over, touching my face, like u did before to me, miss u so much man.. u noe? i doubt.. the thoughts make me feel like tearing now, but telling myself what for.. u're not mine anymore, i can't get u back anymore, i want to give u up now, u nv reply me, what are u thinking when u saw that message? why never reply? have been pondering and pondering.. never stop pondering man...
Another thing i asked abt myself, am i really happy always inside out? or just that the burden that i want everyone happy that's why i am happy??? but i don want to care abt this ya, wat for, i'm sort of numb.. just want everyone around me happy, i will be happy.. although deep in me i noe, i may not be.. but i always believe, 1 [me] suffer, rather den everyone moody right.. hehe c-jae always right.. coz she's smart.. hahaha.. sacrifice is wat i learnt so far..
i have decided to give u up becoz isaw ur friendster, i don't noe wat u mean.. who that mean to? i don want to noe.. no point, why not i give u up, and go for little kid.. but thinking abt wyn's situation, make me don't feel like going for little kid too, but i really miss little kid alot ya.. although last time the things she done, is betraying frenz, donnoe y she does that, frenz say becoz she wants me, but i feel becoz she doesnt want me to be hidden in the dark, who noes? onli she does, i realli miss her alot ya.. hope thurs can meet little kid, den we go beach look at the sunrise.. realli realli hope can c her ya, den we can see the sunrise together, very long nv c the sunrise man..
i want to give u up..
since u love so mani bungs..
make up ur mind pls..
i don want u to hurt urself or other bungs man..
i miss little kid..
i miss u..
should i just concentrate for u onli???
give me sometime to think
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