love is in the air ♥

i think i made juice unhappie, den make gp n *u unhappie la.. den andrea also a bit not happie.. coz she haven bought ani thing she like.. where else i bought 1 pair of shoes, 1 t shirt, n my vintage pants.. hahaha.. but every skirts or tops she tried looks perfectly nice on her.. but i donnoe y she just don like it..haiz.. gals yea.. fussy.. but indeed she is one of the gals with the best taste.. the other is my gp.. i onli realli trust this 2.. hehe.. haiz.. i feel bad even asking andrea out, but since we getting cny clothes so tgt yea.. im sorrie juice.. ytd said to go to fareast with ya.. but ended up didnt.. so sorrie.. yup saw botak.. she didnt saw me.. saw 3 ah bungs.. 1st fugly.. second shy but handsome.. third act bung.. hahahaha... im mean la..

since that probs ar.. haizzz.. more probs gonna come again man... *cross fingers.. *pray to lord.. *praise the lord..

i heard someone shouting my name,
but dont c ya..
sorrie im cock eyes yea..
specs onli to enhance my pupil onli..
still pondering or wondering..
but im too buzi...

the kiss of imu at 9:23 PM .

just now juicy came to my hse.. she is v irritating la.. keep coughing n coughing.. haha den my comp don't like her la.. keep hang, we restart it like donnoe hw mani times, until we are hungry n me tot of going to fareast to find my cny clothes lor.. den suddenly can use.. i was v hungry, juicy n mommy dont let me go buy food lor, juice is toking to joel on da fone, den mommy keep asking me to asked juice whether she wear this hipster skirt, den juicy asked me to buy her sarsi, den me n joel don't agree to buy for her coz of her irritating coughing.. in fact i bought her streps..and ya before she went hme, she tot her money was lost, she made me screamed, arrgh.. coz im always the one scaring ppl, den todae kana scared.. so dumb can..tats all for todae..

ytd, was working, kinda bored, mei mei finished work at 5, manp nv work, feng going home at 5 too, mayuri nv work, but she came down, and took our pics, she cut her hair, look rather fresh n still so cute but now got a sense of femme.. but aunties keep making me laugh, n keep fighting with aunties.. so cute la.. oh ya, was shocked when saw ah bung mdm, she dyed her whole head some blonde n silver colour.. fugly.. not as shuai as before.. ahhhh... i saw small eda, n another chicky gal... been so long nv c them man.. still so cute la.. den at night chen sms me smth abt blood donation want for this 5 yrs old boy... den i just forward to everyone i noe yea.. den when i cleaning the machine, wa the vibration ar, itchy sia.. is *u den pundi queen, darren.. pundi queen was like so enthu man, den from dere i noe *u n pundi queen's blood grp.. den keep msging the 2 of them.. den little kid sms me.. den keep smsing her, den lindy.. hehe gonna meet her on this coming thurs.. to watch chucky [ my son].. yeah!!

fridae..
afta my watching my sch band, so nice I LOVE MY SCHOOL BAND!!, den is my gp, ah lok, beng leong,shark and kenny's perform.. they performed september.. haha no one can hear gp sings.. coz smth wrong with that M, she is so scared afta the performance, we quickly ran back to class, den she scold me, y becoz one of the teacher got flower afta the performance she don't.. i EVER tot of buying.. but too bad got allergy.. i was so tired, i fall asleep when they were decorating the classrooom.. woah.. suddenly i heard sum1 screaming at the walkway, i ran out so did pundi queen, its cyrus n her grp.. chutx fierce sia.. when i pulled her back from behind.. until pundi queen n me calm her down, pundi queen pull her back to class.. den me was too tired when back to sleep den my grp ar, v naughty sia took my pics while im asleep.. but i woke up, coz was hungry.. craving for pizza sia, gp also hungry, asked her go out n eat.. but cannot coz haven finished.. den i keep grumbling n sms to lindy.. she eating sushi.. not fair sia.. until 7 plus we left sch.. den we went to bishan. wanted to eat pasta, haha saw jenson.. hahaha gp tot she tattooed her head.. so kuku can.. den no space, so walk right in to secret recipe.. hahaha we saw joell, she quickly run away.. den saw mei mei n darren.. at last she saw me in uni la.. keep saying so cute.. we ended up eating macs.. arrgh.. saw mommy.. gp gt shocked.. gp is so bad man, she asked me to take her bag for her n still dared say: i won't treat my gf like tat.. so i think her gf is fortunate in a way..

im pondering why hey wru? at1:59:40
did u saw another me?
im still at 138 daes..
hw long more?

the kiss of imu at 5:25 PM .

im in sch now`
hmm wanted to write blog..
but my stupid gp used up most of my time.
argggh..
okay tats all..

i donnoe who i want

i wan tiffieeee
`#17 i wrote this.
tiffiee was here.
*winks

the kiss of imu at 10:37 AM .

v tired.. just came hme..
im stress. sad.
maybe i shldnt expect anything from ya in da first place..
coz u arent mine..
the more i expect the more i donnoe hw i feel towards u..
i guess wat gp said might be right..
but i think i just want a simple.understanding.friendly.cheerful.cute.galfren..
i donnoe are u da one..
i guess i just need sum1 to love me more den i love tat person..
sadified. sadist.

still thinking where to find the 15 holes in human body...
???

the kiss of imu at 10:37 PM .

i guess im not done
becoz of all this thing
make me think back [past]
u eva wanted to abandoned me
*in da toilet bowl
*and even the trash
*or even give me away to one of the auntie
coz she cant give birth
WTH!!
i supposed i either brought u luck or im too adorable
so u didnt, for this i gave u 3 grateful thanks
* i thank u for not flushing me in da toilet bowl
* i thank u for not throwing me in da trash
* i thank u once again for not sending me to some auntie to U.S.A

but u still use the cane to hit me almost everydae
right or wrong, or even when i lost my things
u even try to hoax us by saying u want to leave the hse
for few times
im sick of ur stupid tricks.becoz u wont.ur coward.
there was once u fallen in love with a guy

until u realli sank for him, but at last u realised u are married.
u always say u hate abt dad this n dat, guess u arent jk -ing
coz of ur expressions
so do u still love daddy?
for wat if u don't? to let me n sis have a proper family or even a happie family?
i don feel the happiness n warmth..

i noe ur trying hard to noe me
but im stubborn just like u
i will let u noe minor stuff, so tat u can boast hw well our r/s is

i choose to write afta my dae is over..
though my dae, i wasnt really happie at all..

*shattered pieces
are just rubbish
coz nth u can do to help it..

the kiss of imu at 12:44 AM .

`your just a guidance to me
im outa` ya
im myself
i listen to ya, becoz 17 yrs ago im such a pain in da ass` and also becoz without u.. arent me..
but im out`
wat u said has hurt me deep..
as im still ur gal though i don look like one
if ur not the one who bore me
i guess i wont give a damned..
or maybe a glance
now its my life
let me live it my way
so wat if i like gals [ not like, but mad abt em`]
so wat if im a bung`[im just a gal, with no whiner] [but i can be a better human den man]
[as i understand gals]
u despise me
but u act as if u don't [ for wat]
becoz i brought shame to u
if u don't like
just abandoned me
i can sae [ i don't really need u]
as im out`
i might be young n green.. but i have brain n a heart to learn anything
but am not scared of anything
coz life's like this [unfair]
your just like 'other ppl' giving me tat look when im in da public toilet
your just another gossiper [say smth n do it the other way]
i hate your tactic u deal with me
`money
tricky.wise.order.traditional.loveless.
i can sense u.. afta im outa` and grown
i stayed, so tat u wont feel bored..
but think back its a waste of my time
i rather use it on smth much impt..
coz i feel im like a wandering dog or some mental probs peeps
dat need to get coop up in S.P.C.A. or hougang chalet
u coop me up.. but leaving there.. wats ur point?
u onli concern is my work.myfood.myhealth.mylook.
if not u will be back to ur clothes? work? nags? tv?

hw impt am i to u?

*aches in da heart
*burns in da brain
*hatred in da eye

the kiss of imu at 4:51 PM .

todae me n juice tok on msn.. and things are fine man..
im burying every probs= happended,happening,or going to happen probs
down below my coffin..
don't even try to climb out..
`im sadist

haizzzz
been thinking of u..
nv stop sia..
my brain cell gonna burn..
miss u so much.. so?
onli can c the pic..
supposed is good enough..

oh ya supposed to wish my mei mei [hasy]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
BEST WISHES!!
HAPPIE DAE TO MYSELF!!! IN ADVANCE
though not yet 12..
but thinking i gonna have slight fever..
need more rest..
oh 12...
22 luv 12 loads..

the kiss of imu at 11:29 PM .

just read juicy's blog not long.. sad-ed..
felt so bad..
so sad..
so feel like diarrhoea-ing [after taking the med] when am i gonna recover?
hope she read her blog soon soon..
i nv noe i made everyone so sad..
`im da baddie
`that's y i got gastric flu.. god is punishing me
`im too sinful..
`when everyone is so concerned abt this sick ah bung..
`i gonna pray now

the kiss of imu at 12:30 AM .

haizz... been better, but the med.. doc gave doesnt seem to cure me fully man.. just took mom's med.. it LOOKS like mNm chocolate, u noe the black n white mNm.. thats hw it looks like.. even the packing looks like sweet man.. its so colourful somemore.. green tablet,orange,black and white.. just now i say im supposed to blog alot.. i think is abt last sat..

i got to noe ambrose, juliet and her husband and 1 taxi driver oh ya and uncle tiong, coz my work place there is a bullfrog, so afta work, i acc my mei and her bf [ forgotten his name] *scratch head.. nvm.. he is not impt, so seated outside waitng for iran.. kendrick n rioviee playing cards, den the love birds.. den me taking the yrbook keep looking for gals... cute gals... but donnoe y none of em interest me.. will just go back to that page where u are... ur claz is..

den ambrose came out to tok to us.. asked us hw old are we and stuff like need a drink, food, peanuts, fags? anything can just asked him.. coz he saw us fagging.. haiz he mistook me as a guy again... sianz.. nvm... used to it.. den i cant stand da boredom.. also cant stand the lovebirds.. run abt.. smoke alot.. den abt 1 plus all of us went in to play pool.. coz ambrose let us in.. den uncle tiong came and join us and teach us.. he is drunk.. but still can aim quite well man..

den came juliet, woah, she is sexy yea.. tall and slim, pretty too.. ooh.. too bad she is married.. and too old la.. not interested in me yea.. her skills on pool not good also..

now i wanna blog abt something else.. ya i want to say abt my grumpiness... is inherited by my lao pa!! hahaha at last i noe it.. slow la.. but my lao pa is my grumpy den me man.. coz he is old man.. cannot blame yea..

mom is worrying abt my studies though im still sick.. coz i missed 2 daes of lessons.. haizz.. alot of hmework yea.. shall go back to work... chaoz blog.. sobs

the kiss of imu at 10:47 PM .

i think i have been having gastric pain on like tues.. but didnt really care, wed, went home after coming to sch for an hr.. hw come? coz i vomit like siao.. den my chi teacher asked me to go sick bed.. been vomitting and diarrhoea-ing quite alot... until im v weak ytd till todae morning.. have been eating porridge for all my meals.. until my tongue feel so dry, so bitter.. *crys .. i want to eat NOODLES!!!

woke up like 6 plus... but cant go sch.. too weak..

i think i gt loads to blog abt but i forgotten wat i wanna blog.. my stm has always been that bad yea.. birdie is back to NZ.. i miss birdie.. haizzz... ah bung pal is going back on this sun.. haizzz... bbbbuuuuutttttt.... 22nd is my mei mei's bdae.... and also my dae!!! yeah!!!... hope will recover soon... i donnoe wat to buy for her also.. don even noe can i work..

-imu- alot alot sia..
how come? pondering [ imnotponderingyimissher]

the kiss of imu at 1:51 PM .

let me love u by mario

mmmm.. mmmm... yeah..mmmm yeah..

baby i just don't get it
do u enjoy being hurt?
i know u smelled the perfume, the make up on his shirt
u dont believe his stories
u know that they're all lies
bad as u are, u stick arnd n i and ijust don't noe why

if iwas ya man [baby u]
never worry bout [wat i do]
i'd be comin hme [back to u]
everynight, doin u right
u're the type of woman [deserves good things]
fist full of diamonds [hand full of rings]
baby u're a star [ i just want toshow u, u are]

chorus:
u should let me love
let me be the one
to give u everything u want and need baby good love n protection
make me your selection
show u thew way love's supposed to be
baby u shld let me love u, love u, love u..

the kiss of imu at 5:10 AM .

yellow card -- u are my onli one

broken this fragil thing now and
i cant i cant pick up the pisces
and i thrown my words all around
but i cant i cant give you a reason
i feel so broken up (so broken up)and
i give up (i give up)i just want to tell you so you know
here i go scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
you are my only one i let go
but there just no one that get me like you do
you are my only my only one

made my mistakes lead you down
and i cant i cant hold on for too long
ran my whole life in the ground
and i cant i cant get up when ur gone
and somethings breaking up (breaking out)
i feel like giving up (like giving up)i wont walk out till u know
here i go scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
you are my only one i let go
but theres just no one that gets me like you do
you are my only my only one
here i go so dishonestly leave a note for you
my only one and i know u can see right
though me so let me go
and you will find someone
here i go scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go but theres just no one no one like you
are you my only my only one
my only onemy only one
my only one
you are my only
my only one

the kiss of imu at 1:19 PM .

wtf man.. early morning like 10 plus.. got one siao ppl call me and he said this: ah ong, bla bla bla, donnoe wat toto.. i was like huh.. den he hung up.. den i saw 2 missed call.. i call back:hello who u looking for? he say this again: ah ong ah! bla bla.. toto, den some dialect i don understand.. den i said in chi: ni da cuo dian hua le..

since u need a break go have it yea.. since u think its so stress den.. everything to u seem so immatured.. den i gt nth to sae.. its ur point of view.. tats all..

hmmm ytd i learnt alot of things man.. get to noe ij gals more.. much more.. hope it will me in da future.. thanks to my mei..

the kiss of imu at 12:53 PM .

hmmm these few daes i never follow both grps and cliques..
ah bung is not angry.disappointed. animore...
lookin at the neos we all took.. remind me of mani stuff..
but its all in da past.. i can never find it back again..
i think im still living in da past..
becoz past is just too good tat i can't accept NOW..

the kiss of imu at 1:25 PM .

Alot of things i doesnt want or wished to happened had happened..
wat to do..
predict the unpredictable..
wtf right?
haizzz..
so now i rather be alone for a moment..
Life is hard here..

*missing u has been a regular thing i will do everydae of my fucking life..
*loving u is smth i wont forget to do*becoz u're so impt to me..
*seeing u is smth i hope i can do everydae..

wat a werid time to blog..

the kiss of imu at 4:46 AM .

HAPPIE DAE!!!

hw can i just let u walk away
just let u leave without a trace
when i stand here taking every
breathe with u ooh
u're the onli one who realli knew me at all

hw can can u just walk away from
me, when all i can do is watch u leave
coz we've shared the laughter and this pain and even shared the tears
u're the onli one who realli noe me

the kiss of imu at 12:12 AM .

wat the hell.. juicy u can sae such thing.. asked me don sae anithing to andrea.. u got brain ma? she is my buddies since sec 1 okay.. i noe y she donn want to lent IC.. thats all i can say todae man.. ah bung is sick... ah bung is emotion less.. my grp is still the best man.. no matter wat.. they are there for me.. where's my buddies man?? die... hoo whoo..
frustrated.sad.disappointed.sick.

the kiss of imu at 5:19 PM .

don want to write anything.. want to noe go read juice or tiffiee's blog..

the kiss of imu at 1:26 AM .

now is haizz..
donnoe hw to start..
hope ur safe..
i where got hate u? don kuku la..
i love u can.. alot alot..alot..
i just like to disturb u thats all..
at last c ya in pinafold.. so cute.. *smiles
if onli u always wear uni to mac..
sorrie just now make u angry i think..
i wont do things u don want me to do anymore..
u say i listen.. if i say will u listen?.. nvm.. it doesnt matter..
as long as u happie..

the kiss of imu at 11:39 PM .

i donnoe *u got read my blog..
just want to say this..
im naggy man

' don always skip meals yea'
' bad for health'
'don smoke with empty stomach'
'ur still a young smoker'

yup me and gp are fine man.. back to normal..
im striving hard for my 'Os'
i want to get this point 12

just for u..

the kiss of imu at 10:37 PM .

wat to write?? my bung mdm is pregnant!!! shocking news man.. i still cant believe it man.. me and manp cannot believe it too.. coz we didnt asked mdm also.. we onli got da news from hasy man.. the situation was like this.. daren was cooking chicken, den mdm asked him to move aside.. coz he cooked too slow... den she cooking.. den that fat ass came over said:' must take care of mdm ar.. nxt she cannot cook chicken already',coz she is pregnant.. omg she is pregnant.. my bung mdm, a v cool, with tattoos as hobby, love biking, got a v pretty gf, and also v fierce.. is married n pregnant.. *faint man..

its ur bdae this sundae man.. i doubt u are free, but just hope u got a little time will do.. just wanna pass u ur prezzie, i don like to give ppl's prezzie late... its rude.. n to me not nice.. but still donnoe get wat for u..

*cracking my brain hard..
*cracking my coconut..[u will understand tis joke if ur in my chi lesson]
*u.. i miss u man.. afta 25 last seen man.. somemore also didnt realli c u.. haizz..

the kiss of imu at 10:31 PM .

i don feel good too..
i cant help it..
im too tired..
gimme a break..

leave me alone..
im just too stubborn- headed
Too much anger..

deep down.. i hope things will be fine soon..
my word:' nth cannot be solved by c-jae'..
' unless, unless, unless'

the kiss of imu at 10:05 PM .

im tired n boiling now man.. i gonna delete most of my entries tmr.. and everytime i blog.. i wont write anithing 'in detail man'.. don even feel like writting.. just reached home.. don come read my blog all right.. wanna read this is da last dae.. fuck off everyone.. if u think telling her just ur feelings she wont asked wat happen ar? go tell la.. tell everyone.. den everyone come find me.. u wanna solve it.. solve urself first all right... not my fault.. i wont admit also.. i don c da mistake i made.. fuck off k.. i don need anione to c my blog animore.. maybe i shall stop blogging.. coz i just like my template onli..

im boiling not just angry..
i cant be bothered with anione who tell me watever fuck happen todae..
control my temper? i control too much man..
just explode n show attitude onli..
don come tok cock sing song all right..

the kiss of imu at 11:31 PM .

haiz.. when gp call i was v happie man.. coz u say to gp u miss me.. arnd 1.18 plus am i even more happie, u sms me urself.. i was practically jumping arnd man.. acting like a small kid.. den 1.30 plus am i think, u called me, not think, but u sound tipsy.. im realllie v sorrie i cant make it there when u need me man... i feel so useless.. feel tat god is playing on me man.. when i think u need me i cant be dere.. now is 2 plus am.. i cant sleep.. until u are safe man.. just now was hyper now was v sad.. wat a new year.. izzit good or not??

hope ur safe man..
i want to tell u this but it just wont come out of my damned mouth..
i love u..

the kiss of imu at 2:12 AM .