Tuesday, February 08, 2005
i hold back my tears
but not for long, coz it came out when i sat on the bus
im realli thankful for wat gp wanted to do for me, but me n *u arent fatedto be tgt again..
i shall let u go.. you're my first love to me, becoz u are the one who made me whole
the one who made me cry the most
the one i doesnt i want to leave u everytime i c u..
and made me feel wanted so much..
but ur gone.. n im dead..
My Heart Story
doc walk out of the operation room, mom stopped him
mom: hw's my daughter? doc.. [mom say it tremblingly]
doc shake his head n said: she lost lots of blood, there's a blood clot in her head, and there's a problem w her heart, we need to do an X-ray
doc walk away
mom was weak, she just dropped on the sopt, banging the ground n keep shouting coz she think its her fault..
doc came back with an X-ray
doc: mdm, did ur daughter had any heart problem or had any heart operation b4?
mom: she thought hard, no doc, she did not have any heart problems.. she is a very healthy n cheerful child till 3 mths ago..
4 mths ago
everydae she came back,i will c her holding a pen knife in her hand, cutting herself, i screamed at her, she didnt talk back, but instead she hugged me n cry..becoz she said her heart hurts.. other doc say she is fine.. maybe too stress.. after a while she will stop cutting, thats what the doc told me.. it did..
nurse rushed out of the emergency room, ran to doctor's office shouting: doc! the patient cant hold on no more.. pls come!!! she said it pantingly..
mom holding on to doc n said: PLS save her.. she is my onli daughter..
doc said: i will try my best..
after 15 mins
doc came out ..
mom ran up to him, hw's my daughter?
doc said: she is all right for now.. but still in coma.. she will wake up soon.. her life's is not endangered..
but the same night, just when mrs wong reached home, a call from hosp called n said: c-jae couldnt make it due to her weak heart..
mrs wong broke down straight away..
her death is a mystery
no one noes.. accept her, herself..
mrs wong found a letter in c-jae's bag when she is packing her stuff..
dear *u,
im giving u half of my heart,
so tat u will noe im always w u, even if im not..
i wil nv leave *u... coz i already given u my precious purest heart..
hope anyone who read my blog, would love my story.. thank u for reading..
hope u will be blessed for ur love life..
i need a break..
to heal my half heart..
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