love is in the air ♥

hmmm.. wat am i supposed to sae? my onli fear now is scared mommy will get depression of zero. if so, i gonna cook her man.

the kiss of imu at 7:48 AM .

bdae was sux yup. rather sux. thats all i can sae. i cried like 2 times. haiz.
do i reallie have ta make that decision?
baby, i onli know we seriously need ta tok things out.
nth can be solve in sms man..

let's talk it over
its not like we'll dead
izzit smth i did, or izzit smth u said.
don'te leave me hanging,
the sad is so bad
held up so high
my such a breakable thread
u were all the things i thought i knew.

but truth is,
i donnoe u man. u seem to have 2 characters..
pls don'te do that to me.

out`

the kiss of imu at 9:57 PM .

happie birthdae ta myself, happie birthdae ta myslef, happie birthdae to ah jae!!
sound so lonely might be lonely aniway. but josh was nice, he came down just now ta wish me n pass me da bobbie socks, i gonna wear it tmr man.. its nice.. i like it, we crapped alot at bus stop yea.. fun, nice. thats all.
bdae its just another dae, its not impt animore, i don'te feel like coming ta sch, but mom don'te let, wat ta do, haiz.. wat a bdae, have ta spend in sch, lost half dae can, waste my time. i rather seat on the plane to aust, and sing song to myself.. or sun tanned in sentosa, as no ones there.. as baby is not gonna celebrate w me.. but yea, fidel told me like everything.. i know everything.. its not surprise animore.. but i will just keep my mouth shut.. and act sad.. maybe baby reallie cannot.. haiz.. mr lonely im so lonely.. i have no baby.. im all alone.. ohhh~.. shut up la.. so late sing wat song.

`gone
to do my letter writting..
wat a boring life..
i've got it..

the kiss of imu at 12:42 AM .

was supposed to meet baby at the 159 bus stop, but she missed it.. haha and have ta cabbed down.. hahaha.. i suspect zero is a lesbian doggie man.. haha u noe where she get so excited when she met baby can.. hahaha.. she scratch baby somemore.. naughty gal..

i don'te know izzit i wore the wrong shirt becoz its brown, becoz she is attitude to me throughout.. haiz.. but daddy n mommy's home so i cant get the other button shirts out yea.. i don'te the reason so just guessing.. or am i too retarted? but its a known thing im v retarted.. thats me yea.. i try to be extra retarted so that my stressness wont show infront of her.. im under a lot of stress from mommy, work, studies, no time for baby.. they are just irritating stuff man.. thye wont leave me till maybe i die.. went ta marina square for dinner, it was so quiet, we stare arnd but nv tok much.. calamari is so crunchy till my mouth muscle aches man.. and now i understand why ah gua sometime will sae eating is boring yea.. i get it..

went ta toilet, baby keep laughing at me, becoz of that auntie.. im a gal yea.. c all u want.. lesbians is nth big now a daes.. okay we have a short conversation yea.. ate ice -cream went ta sit arnd somewhere near a fountain, i let her hear the video i took ytd, i don'te know whether did she hear it all.. i asked her to listen again, she didnt want ta... nvm, left ta kovan.. met klenn kane, eileen, adriena, yong qiang, justin for a bb game.. haha i fall like so mani times, that usual me, if i don'te get injured in a game means i didnt reallie play well yea.. haha.. it was funni yea, i fell kane fall on me.. oh ya klenn hint me smth, sorrie i always don'te have time for my baby.. haiz..

baby: im sorrie if i say wrong thing, wasnt realli thinking of ani thing when i sae..
coz i noe i made u angry yea.
im not a arrogant person who look down on others. i hope u don'te get wrong idea of me.

happie birthdae fidel.
sorrie monique, i cant work. told ya mom will call u. don'te believe.
i need ta spend time w mom before she got depression.

why is everything so screwed up before my bdae?
will everything turn out well after bdae?
or even on bdae?

the kiss of imu at 3:33 PM .

fuck off la.. can u give me peace a not, im fucking stress.. and i feel so fucked up now la..everything i also must be responsible.. smth not right asked me.. u think everydae of my life is so smooth going. things do cocked up yea.. and life sux for me nowadaes.. or shld even sae i got no life.. i feel like getting outta house and nv wanna return. feel like smashing my phone on the ground just now.. so mom, sis won'te bother me.. and i feel like coping my passport get air tics and ran away on my bdae man.. i have no life, its been controlled like that..
im a going 17 bung.. leave me alone.. i reallie feel like leaving home.. leaving this country... to somewhere i don'te know.. and w my fone cut off.. and be back as a better person...

`leave me alone..
i want peace...
baby, do ya noe im scared of u?
do ya noe i missed u terribly?
do ya noe how much i wanna hold u tight n nv let u go?
i can sae everything, but will u tell me anithing?

the kiss of imu at 10:53 PM .

i came ta work todae, den fidel n mayo told me that a customer knock his head on the counter while falls and bleed profusely man.. ambulance came too.. thats serious man.. why didnt i tot of coming earlier. hai~ missed the show haha.. crowded. long queues.. so boring.. waiting and counting down to my anni dae and my bdae.. so happie la.. cant wait to go for a tanned yea.. baby say i look too pale.. must go tanning yea.. hmm go for a 7 hrs tanned? hw abt that juice.. just like tat time.. i even saved a boy.. w juice, lots of unfortunate events can happen.. haha jk.. good n bad comes by yea, i miss sam.. i miss all the aunties n uncles man.. i mean juicy's fam, oh yeah, gp is back, but she says her trip was bad.. hmm gonna meet her up n asked her yea.. not sure.. she was dead beat n never reply me..

juice just asked me wat am i going ta do for my bdae, i don'te know, i got ta split my time lor, half for group the other for baby n clique i think.. and frenz, pals, budz must celebrate w me yea, if not i will be very sad yup. i don'te want to be mr lonely.. still thinking whether should i go sch on that dae.. so sianz.. somemore its tues, the dae i hate the most.. i'll think abt that later.

im addicted to u*
i wanna hug u so much so much..
baby is so excited n anxious to meet zero..
i wanna c her reaction man..
both of us are busy w work..
i think can onli meet during anni..
i wanna give u a big bear hug..
coz i miss ya too much..

the kiss of imu at 2:28 AM .

its like 2 plus going 3. have been sleeping this late.. soo's chalet was fun.. i got to know some new frenz.. cool huh.. it was a touching and romantic one yea.. and obviously fun..

haiz have been 'cold war' w baby.. but its over.. we can go thru all these man, right baby =) and its over.. i meanthe problems.. although ah gua not in sing cant help.. got soo.. my saviour.. she helped me alot all along man... i think i owe her one.. a big one indeed..

To baby: im sorrie i acted to paranoid..
as i always sae to anione, im scared to lose u..
im reallie scare..
its not i have no confident in u..
but myself..
but i will build it up..

im sorrie i gave u sort of attitude..
coz im very du lan w em..

i supposed the next few daes i wont c her, until anni, coz she needs to work, poor gal..
*sorrie, i made u dropped down for nth.. mayo fault.. hahaha..
i will cherished the times w u..
` out to make pressie..

the kiss of imu at 3:05 AM .

I open my eyes
I try to see
but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge I
’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that
I’ve done No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

the kiss of imu at 2:51 AM .

its blogging time.. report news.. pls don not get 3230, thats the phone im using now.. it suck.. trust me.. unless ur not that careless n have butter fingers like me, u can get it.. if not don'te waste ur 500 bucks on it just like me.. thats all for news..
hahaha dumb...

nothing special todae.. todae is the special one.. hehe.. going chalet.. todae woke up nearly suffocated.. mom locked all the windows man.. becoz they painting the building.. and i nearly die.. hahaha.. as always.. poor zero, in jie's chalet, but is locked up.. zero locked up they wont let her out.. i miss sch.. truely miss.. working 8 hours a dae and getting some meagre pay.. pathetic can.. haha i gonna graduate first and go to mommy's office to be a trainee as a radiograher.. cool right.. shit ar.. radiation all over my body.. hahaha..

mommy asked me whether my radio still can work.. i told her cant, and i doesnt want to fix it like again, waste of my time.. so mommy say she gonna get me like another phone.. like 6681 or 6680.. hahaha..

thats abt it for todae.. nothing much, don'te reallie have any ideas on my movie.. no mood to think..
ciaos

the kiss of imu at 11:00 PM .

pls refresh pls refresh pls refresh.. somethings wrong with blog..
pls refresh pls refresh

ah~ im sleepy. but i miss my baby gal!!!!
i want my baby gal!!!

sorrie its late night madness from c-jae wong..

the kiss of imu at 2:54 AM .

all right shall update, since juicy say i nv update..
have been very busy with work.. every dae 8 hrs is killing me.. smoking is killing.. missing my baby is reallie killing me.. i don'te have much time to spend w her due to work.. i feel very guilty.. its onli the start of our new r/s and now this is the obstacle man.. somemore she is sick, have blocked nose n cough.. To readers: am i a lousy gf? am i useless? i find that im one.. pls answer when u read this to my tag board..

i feel like crying, maybe not cry.. but tear.. baby gal might not be going to chalet, if she not going i also don'te feel like going man.. saw her 2 daes ago, she sent me home, but she have ta go home already cause she very tire, some more she is sick.
To: baby, im sorrie, i always have ta make u wait for me after work..

haiz, i miss my banana mommy man, i rather hate hols man, coz this is my last yr, i cant reallie spend time w frenz due to work, i think i need to quit.. but they need ppl man.. but there are new staff.. but, my mdms are very nice, n i enjoy working w em, lots of fun n laughter and i learn alot.. from the itc yup the procedure and stuff..

im damned emo this afternoon and wrote i hell lot of stuff and its 5 pages long [ on da phone], want to read it sms me.. hahaha.. i don'te know am i being paranoid or wat.. or just tat i miss her too much, way too much..

oh yup.. my new movie will be up soon i supposed.. maybe not soon but will be out.. sure.. ppl will be thinking.. never knew c-jae this idiot can make movie.. hehs wats w my big head.. its a total gruesome story.. u wouldnt want to watch it.. trust me.. its worst then cannibal 1 n 2 i think.. and i got my characters already.. my movie name is call ' THE FAMOUS ART SCHOOL', its in the process of making..

miss leader: tiffie
mr cheeky: terence
mr darer: joel
miss bimbo: juice
mr cool: kenny
miss weirdo: unknown
mr timid: unknown
miss gossip: hanny
miss laughter: banana
this are the students..

the teachers
the twins principal: unknown
mr weird: unknown
miss creepy: unknown
mr famous: unknown

more characters will be coming up.. more exciting n gruesome killings will be up soon too..

good charlotte is coming to sing!!!
its on da 12 of july!!!
wanna join us? pls tag me..

the kiss of imu at 2:22 AM .

pls refresh when u c my blog.. its dumb just like me yup.. i have to type tis everytime, this is so troublesome..
ah chutx don'te sad yup..
i don'te know wat to tell her too..
just hope she don'te inflict too much pain on herself..

the kiss of imu at 1:28 AM .

todae's a very tiring dae.. i work arnd 9 1/2 hours, that 1 1/2 hours is being a free labour, as i cant put auntie alone to wash the 3 machines right.. thats so bad.. so i helped her washed everything, hmmm ya sorrie baby made u wait, like almost everytime.. felt rather guilty man..
haha at last saw my baby..
To baby: i don'te mean to laugh at u everytime i c u,
even after u had ur hair chopped.
u just bring laughter outa me,
seldom ppl can do dat,
as im the one who always makes ppl arnd me laugh.
u're special yup..
as ur my baby gal..

i had lots of fun just now, with baby, there's nth i need to worry abt except for cockroaches.
coz she will jumped arnd, and cockroaches are like everywhere yup.. hahaha.. i like to c all her reactions.. its just makes me laugh..

wat izzit like to get wished by the gal u like before?
`i feels bad

the kiss of imu at 1:22 AM .

pls refresh when u c my blog.. its dumb just like me yup..
jay chou got movie man..
so cool..
so shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up!!

the kiss of imu at 10:54 PM .

anger.sadness.fear.worried.every emotions are just flashing on my brains making me feel vexed. i want to smoke. but i just ran out of cigarettes. wat am i vexed abt? i don'te noe. i have got no idea. but just a lot things to worry. 1st my homework.2nd my work. 3rd my baby gal.4th cash flow problems. ARGGGGHHHH... wat else many many more.. i can'these things aside. as they are impt. they need to be pass up. done. missed. love. use.

im fearing all these things tgt as they are linked get it?
im having S cube second week of next month, 2 - 5 or 6 i cant meet my baby basically.. 7 daes a week 5 daes i cant meet her.. weekends working.. cant meet her unless she comes, its like always.. time to c her gets lesser. thats my fear.

haiz i don'te noe wat to do.. i need a break.. and im having it now. but im still stress, im not letting myself rest. and i find that nowadaes im much weaker..

lets just try to console myself, its onli the 8 of june. i still have a couple of weeks. plan a time table well, do ur work. now put everything behind first and try to do ur work. whenever ur free n not tired do ur self study.

im just toking to myself, i found my faults, i cured it. hope it helps.
as usual i wont tell anione, except my blog..
telling means adding loads, tell it in blog and ppl c or not its a different thing.
as by the time, im saved. as i cure myself..

i miss my baby gal.
she's such a sexy lady.
that no one can denied.

the kiss of imu at 10:51 PM .

went ta cut my hair ytd, can't stand it. too long. baby actuallie don'te let me cut, coz she thinks my hair is too short.but she approved after much persuation. wanted to cut my hair at the barber shop, bro cut. but fab gave the wrong infor went there no barber w the name sri nada. so cut at somewhere classy like juice say. but it turn out nice. the person was actuallie scare to cut lines for me. wanted to put baby's name. but the person sae too long. so its baby's code. and my 3 lines on the other side. my tail is long man. lucky baby like my hair. lucky it turn out nice. if not i don'te have face to face my baby man.

haha, baby look so cute, she is so tanned,her face is very red. but very cute. waited for her to off work, soo came to find me. haha so cute, at first tot gp was w her, but cropped up coz grandma is sick. hope she is fine. i have been quite some time haven updated my gp or talk to my gp. miss her. i shall message her later. saying something.

acc chutx to cut her hair. bio was fun, fishie n gp broke a test tube. hahaha.

To baby:
baby, i know u saw the message,
i think u felt uneasy too.
its just a feeling from me to sae so.
don'te care or get affected by wat she sae.
she's an outsider.
she don'te c how much i c.
as she's not close to me.
i love u. thats the fact. we are tgt. thats a fact.
i don'te need everyone's approval.
coz i noe wat im doing.
i noe i want u so much so much.
they have the right to sae watever they want.
but not the right to influence.
i know your cool abt it.
i just wanna tell u so.
i said i don'te want to hide anithing from u.
and i won't.

i miss my baby so so much..
i can't get enough of her..

the kiss of imu at 11:46 PM .