love is in the air ♥

just read juice's blog.. nth much..
i didnt want to,
but u're like constantly asking me to.
den i shant be that thick skinned to be that caring and
shall care less den.
watever i do is wrong.
im just being myself. caring as a frenz.
maybe more. i don'te know.
change your URL den, maybe that will make me care less, love less.
is that wat u want? den be it then.

wat shld i do?
wat must i do?
everything i do, or did was wrong.
wat's right?

do i always have to envy someone else?
like ash and jie.
like fishie and farhana.
like soo and tiffie.

i just don'te like this type of feeling. altho its happie to see em happie.
but its obvious, u long to have one to.

the kiss of imu at 12:32 AM .

morning for us is always 'blue', but todae morning is different for us. haha at least, mommy isnt sleeping, coz we play alphabet biscuits. haha. the confectionery cheater bug. don'te have all the alphabet. but sure to have ABC, becoz its ABC biscuits. haha. so we have to be rather creative and create our names out. cool. haha. took pics too. so funny.
did u receive my mms?
sad-ed. the grp of us donnoe got how many F9. all right shant sae anymore, becoz its not a wonderful thing to sae. everyone was so depressed and anxious over our results. failed math, now-where we can go pls. so im going to do n do n do n do. and consult my math tuition teacher, mayuri thong.
coconut is very enthu in the morning, he wants to go climb mountain. haha. he tok and tok, my ead go lower and lower, till i fall asleep on tiff's table. i think i made mrs bird very sad. im sorry, cher, but u're a great el teacher of coz. yeah! my fave lesson, PE, hahahaha, wat onli, onli the bungs are so enthu for PE, the gals forgotten to bring PE t shirt. 'absent minded', fishie and me were complaining abt our hair, oh man, its going and its messy. i want to chop it off, farhana don'te let fishie cut hair, so i supposed i will acc her till like Os over to cut hair? hmm, well c, i cant stand my hair.
heh had soccer. cool. friendly match w the guys. 5 mths since we kick the ball again, but skills still there. suddenly ter and gang terro us, den i bang into vincent again! oh man, both of us nv wear shin pad, and now both of us have a lump on our legs. ouch! he surely got a metal leg pls.
haha, recess we played like freak man, hahaha. hahaha, don'te ever give seaweed to me or mommy, pls don'te haha. coz we made a fool out of ourselves and made tiffie laugh till she teared. haha we even video it. haha. now i think abt it, its very funny. oh, chen's cousin very cute. hahaha, i was laughing and laughing coz she's so cute pls. and i got her pic. den i sae i want to match make her and baby joshua. haha.

oh jie nad ash came back todae, the first thing she did was lay on top of me while im sleeping. becoz i nv made any noise, den she said, heh no reaction one. den i said, i open my eyes lor, den she say got meh. no one can c my eyes, when im half asleep. haha. she injured her knee. den she asked: corin lai, ni ji si yao turn straight?
den i answered: wo you jiang yao turn straight meh? i don'te rmb le.
den she say me when i was eating sausage, ni hen xiang ah pek leh. nvm den, becoz i don'te always see her, let her sae la. wat a sis i got. but nvm i got my revenge in a way. haha, she was injured right, dad helped her to rub till she kept screaming and teared. haha.
haha so anyone got any cute baby pics, bluetooth me. im collecting it.

yeah tmr no sch. kidding. not going anyway. but going to forbidden place to study. anyone wanna join?
heh pandi, better come back sch. i miss u man.. stupid pandi.

the kiss of imu at 9:02 PM .

back to sch! heh its fun and face reality over our lousy exam scripts. however look on the bright side. its only prelim. last year i said that too. i strive hard enough to take my O level this yr. so no more wasting of time over other things. everything can leave it till after Os, i have lots of time, hmm maybe not, gonna work, learn mosaic art, learn hockey, ya da ya da. its depressing for us to look at our exam scripts.. i will work harder. no more playing jae. and to the samies. serious work. hahaha.
don sms mommy, the fake corina no.2, tiffie was the first, coz don asked wat's ur name, and tiffie put my name, and don think that tiffie is corina also. haha. thats funny. haha now he's scared that we arent gonna pay up, haha.
went for el workshop till like recess over, heh, the speaker has got tails!! haha, we were listening, but she's walking arnd too. she got tails man, and its loonnnggg.. so jealous.. haha. den me and tiffie share one table, den this malay gal, was sitting opp pam, and tiffie saw her turning and smiling at me. haha, mommy and tiffie were teasing me tru out. haha. its funny, coz she fits my criteria. i mean some. maybe one or two only. haha. i might have met the gal i want, maybe we lost it. let fate decide then. as i still love her.
pandi queen never come, if not she sure laugh until drop. she always does that. hahaha. todae den we realised that chutx and her erm* were wearing the same brand of shoes. haha. so cute. chutx lost our prom nite entry form. den we talk and say we doesnt want to go, we want to have our own prom nite, go and have our prom and go for a drink or smth. den chutx sae go on 17th dec again, to re- celebrate our rejoice to our N level result. hahaha. and get ourselves drunk. and we deciding to leave house 3 daes to someone else's house to stay and ya chill, tok, play, drink ya da la. den ya jack shld be back by den, shall go his house but his house got no furniture, tv bla, coz mommy suggest to have a movie marathorn and watch all types of shows. den chutx suggest to go pulau ubin. den mommy scared we got lost and will be reported on ' missing' hahaha.
due to lousy results. on the way, on man! i supposed i saw jean after hw many months? after 17 months. oh man, still rmb i always walk outside her sch, go to every gate, hope to bump into her. oh man, 1 and a half yr gone man. rmbing, going her sch to see her cheerleading. heh, thats was bitter-sweet man.. anyway its over and we went to pizza hut and ate alot.. we ate like glutton. nahx onli me. den we tok abt camps. and hong kong trip, hahaha, i made mommy n tiffie very excited until they feel like flying there right now. haha. den they say if their parents don'te let, i will have to buy everything back for them, coz todae we pass this optical shop w lots of specs. cool and nice specs, den i keep telling em to go hk and buy. everything go there buy. haha, den we going there to cut hair too, cut some very style n funky hair.
i think all this rather motivate us to study more, so as daes will pass by faster and Os be over soon.
oh ya sham todae came up to class and first hing she told me is: corina!, u know who i saw when i went to J8 anot?
Den i think and answered: evonne?
she replied excited: ya la.
my brain thinking, so?
she replied: she with another bung.
den she walked off..
left me and juice. den i think, good wat, she moved on, and she's happie w another bung. i'm truely happie for her. don'te ask me why. don'te ask me whether i feel jealous or not. coz im not. i guess sham still think i love vonne, i need ta update her.
i reallie feel very happie for her.
i also don'te know why.
i wish her all the best.

i told em. i miss her* badly.
u shld noe who u are.
i miss #02.

the kiss of imu at 5:54 PM .

these few daes i haven been happy at all . i told u i hate hols, okay this isnt hols, i just hate no schs. it just sux. or maybe shld sae i hate when im too free. i just want to divert my attention to smth else now. after being questioned by so many ppl. i made my decision. i think we are not meant to be. like u sae. since u sae so. den it shall be. u don'te need me anymore. im tired. anyway even if i stay, i cant help u in anyway. its all up to u. i supposed i tried my best. at least to be there for u. i cannot take it no more. just let me leave.

i want to be alone.
i want to heal myself.
i want to find what's happiness.
i don'te want to be that giver anymore.

gal, take care of yourself.
pick yourself up.
i know u can do it.
study ar.
rmbed to do your homework and tuitionwork.
exam coming. good luck in advance.
do your best.

let's just be friends. :)

#22 will always be here.
take care #02
you're the best gal i ever had.

the kiss of imu at 10:09 PM .

BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now

BOY: I couldn't look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldn't even look at me

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesn't mean it

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didn't mean it

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He love his new girlfriend

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him
someone is thinking of yousomeone cares about you.
someone misses yousomeone wants to hold your hand.
someone wants you to be happy.
someone wants to hug you.
someone will do anything for you.
someone needs to know your love is unconditional.
someone wants to tell you how muchthey care.
someone wants to stay up watching movies w you.
someone wants to hold you in their arms.
someone wants to see you.
someone wants to be your lover.
someone loves you for who you are.
someone loves the way you make them feel.
someone wants to be with you.
someone wants you to know they are there for you.
someone is glad that you're their friend.
someone is wishing you would noticethem.
someone wants to get to know you better.
someone loves you.

don'te ask me why i post this, i just suddenly saw this. and just feel like posting it. so i did it. its meaningful.

the kiss of imu at 11:42 PM .

what am i supposed to say? everyone is telling me this and that. everyone is asking me the decision. everyone is giving me suggestion. i don'te want to do something i will regret. although i won't regret for the things i have done, becoz things that are done cannot be undone. so wats the point of regreting. someone decide for me, why not? im stuck right at this moment. it seems like i been to outer space. and back, and don'te know wat shld i do. or react to this situation.

im frowning n frowning. thinking and thinking. stoning and stoning. looking around my study room.

sammies!! why not u all tell me who's the right gal for me? every gal that pass and leave, u all sae u deserve someone better. okay, i wait. and eventually i changed due to my fucking attitude. to someone better den before, i met another gal, she used to love me first, and i used to think i take her for granted, no it wasnt, its her. not me. no, its just the both of us. i don'te know. its like no matter hw much i try, we just cannot be tgt. and after her, came another 2 gals, they like me, however i have no feelings for em. so am i supposed to find someone who will appreciate me instead. and so ya i wait.

and came u*, i don'te know why my feelings for u were that fast.
im stuck i don'te know hw to write. or go on. i seem to lost my brain.

...to be continued.

the kiss of imu at 11:20 PM .

i don'te know wat to write after when she came in and hug me. the hug means nth, i don'te feel my mom's warm anymore. now i wonder did i ever love her, ever since so many things happened? do i? i don'te know. do i even love my dad? i doubt ever since that day, he slapped me, for some reasons.
u kept screaming at me, for the things u found out that i lied to u. can u accept the things i want to do. no, u wont. other than hiding from u. i can't do anything else. fine, watever i promised u, i break it, im in the wrong. but i just doesnt like to face u at times. u make me feel lousy. made me feel like im the worst production of human. everytime i try, u put me down. however, i will prove it to u.

since i have my plans abt everything i want to do and be in the future. i have no fears.

sometime, i always wonder, i don'te look like him, nor u. am i reallie yor child? i wonder. where i come from?
wat else shld i write? i don'te know. todae is my day. so? anyone care? anyone bother? no, its just a dae. dumb ass. but i care. becoz of all the daes. i wanted todae to be happy, at least the happiest among. i cant. i couldnt. i was waken by this dream, u see, i don'te usually dream, i don'te know whether it is bad or good, but i just don'te like to dream abt ppl dying. and getting off bed, with fear. some more is your fren. and it start to pour, i don'te like raining dae.. coz everytime it rains, something bad will like happen. i don'te like it.. like some kind of bad omen.

after all, todae arent a good dae. so no point writting anymore.
im tired of pleasing ppl.
im very tired.
who can please me?
who's gonna make me happie?
myself? santa claus?
when all of u sae ' i want u to be as happy as us'.
find the happiness for me then.
action speaks louder than words.

` i want to sleep.
mr 22, u sux big time!!

the kiss of imu at 9:23 PM .

gf just left. boohoos. but uhhmm, what i really wanted to say was, thanks.. i dont think i could have ever survived tonight without you. thanks for staying here through out.. thanks for your hugs, kisses and your love.. thanks for being there.. just.. thanks for everything..

i dont think i can ever be your best gf too, i gave what i had to someone else, now i'm left with nothing.. i am nobody.. do think about it.. all i am, is nothing worth. all i have, is just scraps. there's only a bit of love that i can give, and hopefully, with the right TLC, it will grow..

i don't believe in forever anymore either..

+ signing out, isA`o2.. (my love, yours.)

the kiss of imu at 12:39 AM .

HELLOS. gf invasion again! (Grins) this doofus wont blog for me.. so i shall blog for her then.. but honestly, i dont know what to say.. uhhs.. uhhh well...

i was caught in a very bad situation this evening, and she made it a point to cab down to see me, i dont know if i was pleased to see her of if i felt that she was an irritant. BUT oh wells, seeing my retard always makes me happy.. I didnt end up crying when i met her.. it was more of a neutral talk, with no emotions attached.. I wasn't really paying attention to her when she nagged though.. i couldn't hold my mind there, not when i was smoking and drinking, plus everything was just too much for me to absorb.. but ahh, she was there and that was enough for me.. so I wasn't too suicidal.. in fact, i didn't feel like dying anymore.. i was just depressed and in my own selfish world, i guess...

Ahhh.. anyways, we went back home together since I was having tuition soon, and poor bladder was about to burst any moment.. She sat through the whole entire time I was having my tuition.. Surprisingly quiet for the retarded gf.. (tongue out) It was that so near yet so far feeling when I had to focus on studies and she was right there, behind me.. stoning.. BAHAAHH, so anyways, tuition ended so I have her all to myself NOW.. ALONE..

(evviill) BUT... gf NO SEX DRIVE LAR..

so anyways, I spent the time cuddling with her and uhhs.. being with her? we went through many CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE kitty cat pictures.. SUPER DUPER CUTE PLEASE! omg. i can't believe how much i adore cats.. hehs..

gf's beside me now. arm chio. so silly lar she.

i love you? (pleading eyes)

I read something I wasn't supposed to read yet.. but.. oh well, forgotten but understood.. point taken.. i shall do something about jason and i before she gets to her decision.. i musn't let the past affect me anymore.. gf seems to be more important in my life each day.. what started out as just a crush.. turns out to be more... sooo, what's next? i really wonder...

i love you. yes. really. truly.

+ signing off, isA`02 *kisses gf beside me. (grins)

the kiss of imu at 11:55 PM .

haha. none of 5/2 F&N student can reallie do the paper. i mean the few bunch of us. the usual. me n ter no book. mommy took her book from sch this morning. tiffie was sick. ya so hw to study. so i said: use your general knowledge. the qns are easy, trust me, if u study. its all in the book. and sort of general knowledge. ter asked us: wat's 'zoning'. the sentence is like 'i'm zoning'. haha. don'te know. but my dict came out smth else. den sat outside hall, crapping forgotten wat we talked abt alr. haha very long nv crap n laugh. seems like very long nv see each other. oh ya we talked guiness world record thingg. and em. ermm. they teased me.

wanted to change in sch. however the long skirt walk pass, den i think forget it, i don'te want to questioned when i walked out of the toilet. as i was questioned before, that time when i took my N level result, jack still can laugh abt it. and i have ta explained to the OM. i think he's embarassed.

so guess where did i changed?
hahaha, u wouldnt imagine.

i changed under the mrt track there, behind some sort of pillar. hahaha.
when i sae i don'te mind changing outside, the clique is like so enthu.
looking n suggesting places for me to changed.
haha, it was funni. heh i was fast man.

bus down to gf's house. the ride was so long. den i was so sleepy. den came a group of gals from whitley sec, they keep gossiping n laughing. till i cant sleep. poor gf look so sickly, haha she asked me to pull the door, and i think i keep on pushing. oh man. why am i so dumb? i feel so embarassed. i piggy back my gf, n carried her. and she was like screaming tru out. haha. oh man, she's one of the lightest gal, i ever carried. gf ar. eat more, pls eat more.
i had a fun time over at gf's house. gf, pls take ur med. pls. haiz.

omg. i forgotten. i reallie did. todae is our gay day!
happie dae, gp.
anywae i think u forgotten too.
so sad.
we'll never rmb this dae.
i mean rmb it that well.
well, 2 more daes. to ermm.
your anni.

the kiss of imu at 10:43 PM .

met juice in the morning for breakfast. met weird ppl on the way man. haha forgotten where to meet juice so was late. moreover never bring phone. raining heavily man.. woah so cold. den me and juice were toking n toking. she asked me: wats ur decision, jae? she list out somethings. i listened. ya da ya da. she don'te have a feeling. u know why i say that. i can tell u that juice is my guidance angel? or pyschic. but its onli on me. i don'te know hw to explained. if anything is going wrong, she will immediately sense that i might be this n this. and it always nv fails to turn out right. so cool huh. hwever i will make the decision myself. opinions are accepted. i know wat to do buds. no worries.

been looking forward for our future, we'll be setting up companies of our own in ten yrs time. heh im not dae dreaming abt it. im serious. and so are the samies. 'the samies enterprise' cool huh. maybe. yawns im lazy to write in detail.
me, josh, song ling n peggy make a wish or watever, we'll be going to mauritius.. it will be 4 yrs time. me n josh confirmed the place at last. it was 5 yrs ago we said that. however u know wat. at last i think onli me n josh will go n maybe bring our gfs there. if they wish to.
counting down. 4 yrs more. cant wait man..
wat else i cant wait, is after Os, i want to go kick soccer, skate [unless my deck still w me], go sun tanning, go back to learn hip hop, go learn mosaic art, go learn aikkido. go work. earn money!! hahaha.

i gonna flunk my F&N.

2 weeks. yes 2 weeks. yup 2 weeks.
lalalalala.

the kiss of imu at 10:15 PM .

jae...you're my absolute best bud.
and seeing you hurt upsets me.
don't get your heart broken again jae.
stop it before it happens.
you deserve so much more than what you're getting.
so so much more.

` i don'te want to hurt myself too.
how many times i have been hurt by so many gals.
but juice, u noe, i rather hurt myself.

what am i supposed to do?
im selfish
i don'te like to share.

dead.

the kiss of imu at 10:08 PM .

have night walk w josh. coz the bb court was like booked. ppl's playing soccer there. when there's a street soccer court nearby. ppl are, no comment. walked n walk. i think i wlak to uncle chris house there, i saw or we saw a garage bag, or shld say i saw first staring at it, so that josh will see it too, he saw, n he quickly hid a bit behind n pull my shirt. like some little timid gal.. hahaha. den he said: jae, wat's dat, izzit dead corse?' im like: josh, no, its not, its tape, don'te scare urself in the middle of the nite pls'. den we continue walking. me, looking arnd trying to look for spooky things to scare josh, haha. nth. back to his block, sat down, crap a little here n there to destress. den toking lame stuff. den went up, another part. we heard lizard's noise. and there'sa lizard near the lift, he saw, immmediately pull my shirt again. and said: faster, press lift. and he dashed into the lift. i laughed at him. thats funni. den when he's getting out of the lift right, he look upright. coz i asked him: do u have ani experience of a lizard dropping on top of ur head? he answered" no why? coz chen did. whenever its april's fool dae, the guys will try to scare her w it, and her reaction is always very big. n she cry immediately. oh man. i cannot stop laughing. whenever i c her cry. i noe im bad. but its funni.

dad called like 6 times. got scolded, he roared at me in the middle of the night. and so im grounded. and its reallie grounded. mom, i still can defied a bit. dad, forget it. altho i don'te know wat he will do.

sorrie. i made u wait. reallie sorrie. haiz.

woke up at 6.30 to go auntie jen's hse. wow, very long nv been there. saw baby joshua [ my cousin]. oh man he resembles sherry so much man.. so much. haiz.. but he's so cute. and so heavy. he's toking baby's talk.. so cute.. he's turning one this coming 20 smth.

hey. todae's the 17th. happie dae. my dearest gp cum daugh

the kiss of imu at 3:35 PM .

gf, i wont be going home early.
im now at josh's house now.
im going to play bb.
im feeling vexed, stressed. and a mixed feeling.
been like that since morning.

`i just wanna be myself.
coz i wasnt.
i need ta find myself.
however, no isolation.
maybe divertion.
to studies.

and gf, pls like take med. n sleep early.

the kiss of imu at 12:05 AM .

gf, i hope u don'te get the wrong idea of me liking u.
coz my words arent right. in some way or other.
wonder u reallie get wat i mean?
coz i think i didnt express it correctly.
in a way.
u can do things out of sympathy
but not love,
its just too wrong.
so i hope u don'te get the wrong idea.
its just that, such gals including*u don'te deserve such bad treatments.
and at times just hoped that im given this chance
to prove i can be a better bung.
coz it always hurt me to see the gal i love hurts.
simply me.
and if i can't do anything.
i feel useless.
does this help for u to understand me better.
so, i try anything, just for the gal i love. *u
[ i hope time can prove ]

the kiss of imu at 11:10 PM .

read juicy's blog, neo might be certified dead. i didnt get ta see him the last time. i think last time i saw him was when i went to aunt nick's hse to change my blogskin. he seems fine. i rmbed the first time i c him, it was w tiffie, he tramples my toes whenver he walk pass me.. and ya he's a doggie. time spent w him was little. hmm getting emo huh. bye neo. don'te be sad ppl, he's just back to god's arm. reminds me how sherry leaves me. i still miss her.
back to juice, be youself as in, be youself. be natural. erm as in, haiz, i don'te hw to sae. its difficult on how to explain. im sorrie, i sort of left u. as in we were very close buddies since like sec3, ppl change, i changed, from a fucked up attitude bung, to now i think. im a much better person. and u from a pessimistic, low self esteem, currently i think thats all.. nothing much abt u changed. u will be asking me whether it is good or not right? both. i onli can tell u that. don'te take it too hard. everyone's got its shortcomings. me too. i have a lot i think.

do u know, everytime i look tru the neos, i reallie reallie reallie miss the times tgt, the four of us. and u know, i try very hard since last yr, not to give up, somehow, nw i cant be bothered. since i left it unattended. let it be like that for some time, after our Os, we have lots of time to sort things out. i truely doesnt want to lost contact w u. as in my some part of my life, i need u back to my life. so does u right? i hoped. josh did point out some things to me, i have my reasons for nt telling u smths. i guessed u noe right. as at the point of time im desperately in need of help, and i need someone who noes her. thats why i didnt turn to u. hope u don'te blame me.

just want to say.
let bygones be bygones.
let the unhappiness be buried.
im sick of digging it up, over n over again.
if things are meant to be,
so are u right?
no matter hw u seperate it,
it will come back to u.
i know it will be back.
but it will take long.
be patient
start afresh.
let me know u, like how we started.
let us confide in each other like hw we did.
let us take each other's view
into great consideration, as we meant good for each other.
be the crappers, 'big head' again.

trust jae.
everything's gonna be all right.

the kiss of imu at 8:41 PM .

maths paper 2 sux. physics. rather okay. ya. do-able. if onli they make it as grp work - quoted by tiffie. i cant study bio now! how? its not getting into my brain. when mrs gan told us to bring our brains tmr.. haha.. i think im rather slack now. when u don'te have the mood, nth's gonna go in to my pea brain. oh ya,i scolded my mom like arnd 5 plus am, i think i got a shock, someone just sat beside my bed and started talking. i hate mom to be like that man. its scary la.. ppl sleeping u start to talk. den she kana scolded by me for nth. poor mom. ytd her bdae, the next morning kana scolded by daughter. but i apologised to her quite a few times. sorrie mom.

the reason why i so angry when mom tok to me is becoz of this idiot!! FIDEL DON'TE KNOW WAT WEN XIONG!! call me at 4 plus to asked whether i slept. although i told him im not gonna sleep.. but.. ya u noe..

haha juicy gonna take her syllabus B w shawn at tiong bahru..
den i taught her this few words to say to the invilgilator.
"lao shi hao, wo de ming zhi jiao josie gerard cornelia
den when the invilgilator asked u anything qns. just say
" wo she mo duo bu zhi dao.
and u can walk out.
hahaha.

the kiss of imu at 9:53 PM .

gf, called me like 12 plus. she didnt went ta sch. having high fever. she sound so dead on the phone. poor gal, so suggested to go her hse to cook porridge for her to eat. she was elated. wow her refrigerator is like half of cold storage man! so mani type of poutry n seafood. stunned* cooked chicken porridge for her. however the fillets was frozen. so need ta defroze it. waited. hahaha, her maid teared the chicken up, ahaha when i saw, im like oh man! my chicken tissue teared like donnoe wat man. oh man.. hahaha. but its funni la.. when gf saw the porridge, she was doubting whether its edible, coz i told her my food for practical exams, are almost all uncooked, so that it will look nice on the pics.
anyway i didnt eat the porridge. wonder hw it taste like. i ate 1 mouth. coz having cramps. fucking pain. ` feel alot better after ur touch. `u made me feel alot better, reallie. watched nick. was rather funny, but i always wants to sleep during the cartoons. although i love cartoons. thats just me. sudden urge, so asked gf to go study n finish her chi compo. however we were like playing, tickling n studying. i think due to cramps make me feel like sleeping. so i felt asleep after reading bits of physics. slept. gf, asked me to go to bed n sleep, was reluctant. but did. haha was tickling her, playing pooh. gf's bed was so nice, warm to sleep. nearly fall sleep. gf was looking at me. my eyes werent fully close when i sleep. thats how i always scare mommy.. haha.. that was cute, coz gf wont know when im looking at her. till i open my eyes widely.. so i wake up. ahhh!! ding dong!! someone's back. we panicked.. i panicked. den gf say go sleep. faster go sleep. den i just laid on the bed holding pooh on my hand. it was mommy n her auntie. when she came back den i woke up. den i lay back again. haha finally met her bro. i wasnt dao. but was shocked. heh.

i forgotten what i did, oh ya. when i went back to sleep, gf scribbed something on the paper. i saw her scribbling, i woke up, asked her wat did u wrote. she said nth and crumpled the paper. hehe, being curious i fight w gf, to get the paper by tickling her. she surrended. and blushed. haha so cute. i saw. but its a secret between us. shant sae.

had a short chat w jie. she told me she wont turn straight at all, coz of the things she told me, fuck. i will support her no matter wat. jie asked me to go learn driving lesson nxt yr, coz she getting nissan march after retaking her lisence again. will. c how first. tok to ash too, jie agree me working in s.p.c. i miss zero. dumb dog.
okay. gtg. heh i think i start to love math all of a sudden.
isnt it great?

`gf.
i feel good to be by ur side.
i hold u tight by my side. to let u feel my warmth. to hope u feel secure.
i hold u tight. `coz im feeling u. coz i donnoe when's the nxt we'll meet again.
Os, get away fast.
i don'te want to wait till after Os to be our next meeting.
`i want to be w u.

the kiss of imu at 2:22 AM .

hmm shall blog a little, back to sch` heh i love sch..` back to my heavenly 502, love my class.. time is running out fast.. i got no time for anything else. except Os. studies. books.
tmr's mommy's bdae!! i mean my real mommy.. she's got so many many many present. tsk. so jealous. awaiting for the upcoming event. and that is, prom nite!! yeah!! 3 cheers!! christmas!! haha gonna go town kill all the bangala!! haha wiped em out!! hahaha cant wait man.. thats all..

` i arent no faker. believe or not.
every word i mean smth, it comes from my heart.
i said that becoz, everyone's equal to me, be it gf.
AND I DON'TE PRETEND,
im just who i am.
i don'te like being sad. i hide feelings deep in me.
so that budz n frenz wont see, so wont u.
all i want to do is bring happines to everyone.
and to *u.
i just want to be that clown.
im not childish.
im just trying my very best to make ppl that i care laugh n smile.
thats my purpose.

i wonder being 22 is blessed or sin. maybe both. however i feel more sinned.
god. haiz.

the kiss of imu at 10:26 PM .

been studying.. writing notes the whole dae, till just now chat w chen, she say don'te need to study 4,8,10.. cries* and i wrote notez for this 2 chaps.. arghhh.. nvm.. study more chaps more safe.. so i will write 5,6,7 the next few daes.. sort of grounded.. have ta stay home ta study..
met mom n dad n dinner, dad went ta buy monncakes, and he spent like 99 dollars for that.. im like, oh man! why not give me the money? and he bought so much, where me [this idiot] who don'te eat mooncakes.. and mommy, [health freak] who wont eat too.. he can eat it all by himself all meals man.. hahaha.. todae's the 8th, is jie jie's dae for taking some exam right.. car, ya.. wonder how well she did.. was eating magnum ice cream, why must mention name? daugh noes.. i miss my pb.. wonder how is she man.. jc's life no better i supposed..

don'te asked me why do i still want to be there for u* when u still love her.
i don'te know. i just couldnt bare to leave u alone.
coz i tried too. but i can't.
it doesnt matter whether we are tgt a not.
to me, can make u smile, make u be happie.
im contented. reallie.
telling me u love her. doesnt hurt me, just pricks my heart.
u makes me feel better in a way.
trust me, as u nv hide this from me.
isnt wat ur doing?im glad. reallie.
i told my samies [ some ]
if she's coming back to u, and everything's good.
i will leave silently.but don'te worry,
im still tat jaeie. u need me, sms me. or write in ur blog.
and jaeie will be there.
just don'te do things to ruin urself..
to hurt urself.
it aches my heart alot to c u do tat.

don'te say sorrie,
thats the word i hate to hear most,
at least not from u*.

` u said u read my profile in friendster, im just repeating it..

the kiss of imu at 10:14 PM .

i was awaken by gf's call.. she had tuition.. poor thing.. put down, another sound of fibration, unknown no. it was fidel, den he started his shit, and asked me don'te sleep wake up, it goes on.. im so tired, instead i nv when back to sleep, i walk down to the cashonline machine.. fuck!! they just renovated it and its closed.. orh man.. i walked to the market there w fidel continuing w his shit.. den he started another shit say: corina~~~ xia lai zao wo... wo hen sianz.. im like wo yao sui jiao.. den he shouted at me, sui sen mo sui, wo liang tian mei you sui lor.. faster come dpwn find me.. den im like ya la ya la.. reached home wanted to sleep and bluff him.. but htink back, its been quite some time we last met, so washed up and eat breakfast, den he fucking irritating la, keep calling non- stop, asking me wat am i doing.. wat onli? haha jk.. cabbed down, gf called me.. den his manager standing w him at the counter talking abt me, den saw fidel's cheeky face den he said: ni si le, ta interested in u ar.. den jedy keep asking me what colour shld she dye for her hair n stuff.. oh man, i didnt know xiao bai is 18 la.. den fidel keep asking me to work here w him, and blah la.. went ta smoke like every ten mins.. when ur w a heavy smoker thats why.. ahaha he cant even finished his ciggarettes, got customers alr.. haha.. den i keep looking at the shell opp, im thinking is jie jie n ash worked there.. mom called me when i was smoking half way.. asked me where i am n stuff.. went in crap w fidel n stuff, den his collegue aishah came, den we went ta smoke again. acc him to the bank.. sat down there again tok n crap la.. oh man i saw alot of folkswagon n minicooper. and there's one very old minicooper in his work place.. he say the car dealer put it here, see if anione wanna buy it.. its rather new, if onli i got the money to buy.. and i can modified it man.. left to take a bus down town..

went ta somerset mrt station and waited for soo.. gf called me again.. tok n tok.. tilll i hear this music so loud, its a christian bookshop, went in, some how inspired by the songs.. wanted gf to hear, feel the god, gf, ur nv alone, no matter wat, god is always w u.. and stop thinking abt dieing.. i reallie hate it when u sae that.. haizz..

met soo, went ta cold storage and got baygon for hanny, hahaha, met gf, walked down to cinni wanted to get ribbon, cant find so went ta heren, cant find any too, so went to this shop daugh always go, and we saw some huge flower, and tot its nice, bought it and put it round the baygon.. gf, saw her senior, she looks cute from the back.. but too bad i didnt c her face.. went ta sit at NYDC, we wanted seats away form the street, but was rejected, so yea, soo n me was so bloody hungry, both us didnt eat since morning i think, however the ladies are still late, oh man.. me n soo is dieing man.. can be forgiven la, pandi's bdae.. me n soo gave hanny the baygon first, she was laughing, expected. we ate, and poor gf, cant finished her food, however was sort of forced by me n soo.. so she ate more then 3/4.. * a big clap to her.. hahaha.. chutx came for the gals rescue of their pizza.. hahaha, gf was shocked by the food chutx ate man.. she ate alot.. thats chutx.. den we keep talking abt chutx.. hahaha.. so funni.. soo n tiff went ta get a cake, when hanny felt uneasy.. so we talked to her till they are back, and it look pathetic, she didnt even light the candle up for us.. lucky i got my lighter.. haha.. we made hanny use her mouth to get the candle out, usual, and chutx peel some wax out n want hanny to lick it up.. hahA.. everyone was fed, and everyone fed hanny too.. haha.. cream all over her face.. hahaha.. took pics.. nice.. i like it.. after that, i sent gf off to taka, we ran tru out, coz she;s running late, like very late.. i love to jay walk.. my road yea.. haha.. im sad coz we have ta part.. forget to mention saw ke li, this bung.. that we don'te like.. chapalank! like one gangster..

walked back to NYDC, chutx ordered another cake, ooh.. its nice, chocolatey.. hot and nice.. i like it.. ate till bloated man.. went ta walk arnd heeren, went ta addidas n nike n ya went ta take neos.. showed the samies.. the sign was there.. hahaha our enterprise.. pandisamies.. hahahaha.. the 3 bungs look like monekys, coz we climbed the bar, it was so fun.. we always have no time to react to the machine.. it was fast.. however the pics turn out quite well.. i like it.. i love the neos.. if onli gf is there too.. :)
went ta another machine, the one tat we usually take, nice, hahaha me n tiff argued or we don'te know which to choose basically, so some arent very nice.. sorrie samies.. i helped to decorate w tiffie.. haha.. nicee.. funni.. haha we disturbed chutx.. hahaha.. wlaked arnd, went ta finds soo's fren, deen n don'te know who.. haha slacked n chill at spines.. me n soo bought lots of berries juice for them to digest.. wild berry n cranberries.. cranberries taste like cough syrup.. eee.. i keep staring at the hotel opp, haha thats hw our incrdible tales start, hanny start to tok, and we tok abt lots of real life experiences show.. nice.. exciting man.. so unbelieveable.. the hotel is scary too yup.. this 2 ppl like sitting near on the window, den we are like thinking wat if they jumped? oh man.. hahaha.. it was fun.. took pics again.. everyone is so sleepy.. tiffie sae maybe becoz we are too excited the whole dae...

mommy n daddy nagged at me when i reached home. i got no comment, too tired to fight. reallie.. exhausted man..

Where is the moment
when we need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on
Stand in the line just ahead of the law
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carrying on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song
just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carrying on
You had a bad dayYou're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on
and the whole thing it turns outWrong
You might not make it back
and you know that you could be well oh that
StrongWell I'm not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

the kiss of imu at 1:20 PM .

oh man.. i head bang too much.. wa.. my neck killing me.. stupid.. hahaha...
happie birthdae pandi!!!!

the kiss of imu at 12:40 AM .

hitler driving me crazy!!! but i still like hitler.. been home the whole dae.. so good gal right. hahaha self praise.. such a disgrace.. hahaha.. thats jae..
didnt turn up for physics, so did the samies, heh i can tell ya tat its not planned.. cool huh.. telepathy.. i woke up at 7.30, muscles all over my body aches man.. so i messaged daugh.. den she told me she not going too. hah. den hanny messaged her too.. i laughed man.. when i heard this.

a few more mins to my youngest samies bdae. though she's the youngest, but the most mature one, and the most busy one among us.. the most supportive one.. the one laughed the most abt everything.. and ya the cleverest among us, knows hw to take care of ppl.. good hospitality.. good host.. feel like king everytime i go her house.. heh samie.. happie birthdae.. happie 17th bdae..

ooh hoo, its getting near.. im excited.. counting down man..

if onli there's a head bang session.. that will be cool huh.. go jamming..

the kiss of imu at 11:58 PM .

todae i had the most extreme dae of my life.. tats all i can sae ba.. too many details to say, but am dead beat.. just doesnt wanna type, just wanna sleep n forget abt everything.. i mean the bad things.. that have happened..

` i tried to cry, however i hold back my tears, coz i try to tell myself that im infront of u* and so tears didnt came out..
` i tried to cry again, however i failed to do so..

A special thanks to chutx, cyrus. thanks for coming down. im rather tramatized n have no idea wat ta do. maybe it was too much too bear, and u, the saviour came.. came for my rescue.. thanks buddy!! thanks alot!!! reallie!!! thank u man!!

thanks to mayo, for listening to my shit.. thanks..
thanks to shukri, who keep making a fool of himself. and trying to make me laugh.. thanks dude.. thanks for sparing w me, it definitely make me feel alot better to vent anger tru violent.

and yes mayo, i will concentrate and study.. i will.. must study w me yup. teach me maths.
good nitez world..

the kiss of imu at 1:23 AM .

went ta hanny pandi samies house.. haha i reallie look like 1 buglar, wearing the head gear.. on the other hand i looked a break dancer.. i missed break dancing.. i missed skating too.. i missed playing lots of sports man.. i missed the bus, and waited for like freaking 40 mins.. oh man, heh the bus driver was polite, he greeted everyone who board the bus.. thats nice..
haha went ta pandi's house, and daugh is doing her project, hanny's studying.. and we crapped n suddenly daugh was stonning, it was so funni, reallie man.. hahahaha.. gf called, but i have ta go toilet, having diarrhoea, killing me man.. ate too much junk w mommy in the afternoon i think.. den daugh tok to gf.. wondering wat did they talked abt?
went out w pandi's mommy to compass and we ate burger king, oh man, heh lisa u sux man.. ur servicesux totallie.. i wonder they have c.h.a.m.p.s , sure failed until die man.. haha crapped a little, and abt to leave, daugh sae she saw somebody, pandi was like where? erm. hwever me n daugh doesnt want to c em, lucky nv c em too.. :) phew.. went back, daugh called son-in-law, while i do my physics. bit of here n there.. pandi keep nagging at me.. askig me to do, coz i keep looking n jumping arnd.. haha.. den when pandi feel very tired, we wanted to do yoga, den i saw daugh stone again.. hahahha lol.. me n pandi cannot balance.. she sledom stone, and if c it, its funni la.. reallie.. daugh sort of tear w joy after reading son-in-law's blog.. hmmm.. me n pandi is glad, act very happie for em.. coz its like we c them tgt n ya..

wa todae alot of ppl call me or sms me, excpet gf, till like later on..
fidel, jac, hasy,kenny, some weird ppl who asked my name, kfc..
hasy n fidel broke up..
jac n darren sort of broke up..
wats happening man?

and ya now i having sugar rash, or too hyper.. i just cant sleep.
think gonna do physics..
haiz, tmr's swimming cancel.. i need tanning man..

the kiss of imu at 1:36 AM .

sudden downpour, it just dampen my feelings everytime it rains.. however i just feel like standing in the rain.. to feel the rain hitting onto me.. or just run in the rain..
To gf: i just want to be that pillar for u.. i just want to be that colourful rainbow after every rainstorm.. i just want u to be happie.. i don'te mind being silly and acting childish, coz i just want to c u smile.. gf, stop torturing urself, it aches me to c tat.. coz i noe u wont tell me.. some how i just blame myself as i cant be there for u.. to stop everything, to stop everything that can harm u..

i prayed that i hope god can bless u* to be happie everydae..

` i don'te mind taking all the pain. i reallie don'te mind..
`coz the only pain, is seeing u in pain..

the kiss of imu at 12:27 PM .

was reading my blog just now, oh man, i have so mani spelling mistakes.. 'god' became 'got' thats bad.. hope god didnt got angry for my spelling mistakes.. i made my prayers to god.. i hope he answers.. i remebered the last time i prayed was for desiree.. this time i prayed for daugh to get well soon, gf,me. haha..
walked the lonely road i used to walk a long time ago? and it sort of drizzle.. went up the bus, i felt very uneasy, no tv mobile, everyone's so quiet.. the worst is i smelled smth.. familiar, as it smells like vonne.. i hate it.. i totallie feel very fucked up.. however i tell myself, my main purpose is to go meet my daugh and be a good listener.. nothing else.. daugh isnt at home, so i have to meet her at doby instead, went to 2 forbidden place todae, nv been for there for like over 3 months.. where i always go in the past.. ppl who read this might think im avoiding stuff.. but if avoid such troubles can stop the repeat of history, why not? i don'te want to repeat any history anymore.. as a historian.. repeating hisory just sux.. studying in the train just hurts my head alot man.. ohh.. but infor did went into my head..

sat at star bucks to wait for daugh.. had a short talk, saw astrid n amelia. went pasta mania!! ate alfredo, and made her drink soup.. called soo soo.. she sound so sad.. at least now things are solved n over.. isnt it nice? won'te it be nice to see daugh n son-in-law so happie? deifinitely very nice.. went arnd walking, saw kai hui, she got a shock coz i shout her name so loud, hahaha.. haiz, nv study at home work somemore, N level coming lor.. i miss the times we had tgt.. i miss the old old group.. 10 peepz.. went 77th street, to c whether got the technic shirt i wanted so much at bishan.. got it.. wanted the original joker, but its xl, too big, no armpit line thats my daugh say.. hahaha.. so didnt get.. and the sales gal dressing just totali turn me off la.. eeewww.. saw black shirt in marks n spencer, i need to get a black one coz i want to personalised the shirt.. haha daugh tot i want to buy the black shirt for the 10 pin brothers.. hahaha.. haven find the 10 pin yet, have 3 other in mind.. chutx, fishie n soo.. got 10 actuallie, but wat daugh sae is true, the 10 of us must be very close, so.. its rather difficult yea.. trying to form it..

haha at least me n soo made our gfs eat smth.. sent gf home, dashing tru the tunnel.. madenss man.. haha.. so cute la.. im too fat man, i need to work out after Os.. if not i cannot catch my gf the nxt.. trust me.. and wat the hell, jac told me hasy n fidel broke up.. wtf!!!

now she's eating ice cream, which she is not supposed to eat, coz that will end her up in hosp.. gf ar gf.. don'te be so naughty ya.. haiz..

the kiss of imu at 11:32 PM .

where shall i start, no idea, so i just have to start w anythings on my mind. i want a tatoo.. a cow tatoo on my right hand. and my name maybe on the left. and maybe a pericing?? still thinking however a tatoo is compulsory, its gonna be done on my next yrs bdae. its just smth i want it so badly.. althoguh its true, got gave us this body, why must u put holes n drawings on?just to decorate the plain skin w the drawings i like? as this is my body.. that god gave me.. does that answers god? hahaha.. i think so..

sch was fun, though lots of absentees.. ter, nu ren, daugh, ching, rajiv and i don'te know.. wat a vice chair right? as if my form cares. so why i? i just don'te like her.. she's always getting on our nerves, trust me u can asked mommy man.. hahaha this is the last dae of the term, so sort of no lessons, sec 2 having camp. 2 dae 1 night. and we were all checking out the trainers. oh man, i forgot where they from however not the one we had for our sec 3 camps.. the trainers look fragile to us.. not those tough ones we had.. mainly are gals.. none are pretty.. no bungs.. chutx invented something new, a tissue thingg, and me n mommy took videos of that, it was nice.. we want to like post it to the tv, for some competition.. and we are serious in it, for the fun.. and i 'AR CHOO' alot of time till i reallie sneezed.. and now my nose itch alot man.. gonna be rudolph again.. it was nice..

oh man i cannot stand raja man, she asked us to go to hall for some sec 3 debates.. some govt thingg.. however we having our fun in the hall, mommy realli have big reactions man.. coz i played tricks on her.. hahaha.. its reallie funni.. and the long one, keep sniffing the sweet box i have, like sniffing glue la.. so retarted.. beg graciee didnt think so.. she was laughing at the back..

yup thats how i went tru my sch dae.. sch's ending.. im so sad.. i cant live this bunch of idiots, crappers, lamers n whoever.. pandi lost her cal, haiz and her bdae is coming!!!! panicked* PANDI, MAKE SURE U MAKE THIS DAE FREE OR SOME TIME FREE FOR US.. ALL RIGHT!! I BET THE SMAIES WANT TO CELEBRATE W U.. AND SPENT TIME TGT TO CHILL OUT FOR THE LAST TIME.. better don'te get missing.. if not i will call this ur phone bombed man..

arrggghhhhh!!!!! mommmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy stopppppppppppeddddddddddddd nnnnnnaaaaaagggiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggg!!!! my ears drums gonna break!!!!!!! she always makes me wanna leave the house.. she's one of the reason i smoke n drink.. mom , im 17, though young n green.. i can n have the ability to take care of myself.. i know wat to do at the right time.. don'te make me say mean things like i used to.. i don'te like to.. so don'te force me.. thank u.. anyway she wont c all this..

haiz i miss that zero more n more, n miss jie jie n ash.. life's boring.. house's empty.. very indeed.. starting to hate staying, coz every attention is on me.. u c? i just don'te like it..

and to where we stopped pur conversation, gf, for the qns u asked, i don'te know hw to reallie ans u, maybe its just so me, i have the mentality of my 3 rulez.. so ya.. and maybe stress tat causes me to have like low- sex drive i think.. i have no idea abt this.. even juicy asked me this before, its difficult to ans..

poor gal, she's having tuition now..

the kiss of imu at 7:55 PM .

todae woke up, first thing was call gf, and u know wat, she's still asleep, and im the one who woke her her. she's supposed to wake up like 8. but i called her like 9 plus 10. she's been very tired this few daes.. poor gal.. waited for her at fareast, sat somewhere n waited, oh man my ass getting on fire man, coz im sitting on a bulb or smth.. shifted, saw this guy standing below the staircase staring up looking at lady's skirt, i saw, i stared back at him, he stared too, however he shifted.. if not.. met gf, was shocked, hahaha she brought bamboo.. hahaha.. it was a rather useful bamboo.. walked to mrt station, took train to queenstown. gf got lost in interchange b4, thats funni.. so she scared she get lost again.. hmm however we didnt. haha got down, at queestown, haha gf trying to look for the poster nique told her, and try to read directory map, however just pulled her to the taxi stand and we cabbed down, haha walked rounds round queensway shopping centre to look for the shop.. lol.. uncle definitely toks alot, reallie alot, and never ending.. hahaha was being polite and smiled n smile.. on the way to ikea, my dear gf found that she left her wallet among the polo t.. so we ran back and get her wallet, so careless.. walked to ikea, i kept her wallet w me instead, sat at burger king, told gf some things i found out like my hist textbk, is all abt his no her, she was amazed, haha.. she read abt mao. and we just look tru my neos, and she took some of the neos.. gf trying to act smart, try to put the neos behind her hp, hwever the phone couldnt close.. so i gave her a card holder, she ate dogs instead.. went back to queensway, uncle haven even finished doing the shirt, can tell from gf's expression she's pissed, and she said: when it come to business, im very serious. woah. got a business woman face huh.. so cute.. she squashing the dog.. and eating it.. uncle taking his own sweet time n do the shirt.. she got more pissed.. uncle crapped n crapped n asked n toked non stop.. [sorrie i dropped the bamboo.] still feel guility abt it.. wats so funni abt not getting plastics.. faints* cabbed down ta jason's hse, gf went up, i went to ta market nearby, i was hungry, i walked from coffee shops to coffee shops till market for like rounds.. trust me, rounds man.. until i can settle down n get my food.. the food arent nice though.. took own sweet time n ate, and walked around to c wat i can get for her, coz she onli ate dogs.. got some chocs.. went ta take 76, gf called, meet 5.45 at yck. took bus went down. waited till it rains, so cabbed down to fetched her [ i know where's the bridge, however i just doesnt wanna take the bridge.] uncle was like: st 61 is onli over there, den i said im going to 2 places.. annoying fellow.. she isnt in a good mood when she got up the cab.. so i gave her the chocs.. and told her to eat it during concert..

it was rather a long journey to sp. uncle dropped us at the wrong spot, coz we didnt know where's the place where the concert held. woah the auntie explained till so detailed till i couldnt catch some. but managed to in the end. haha gf wants to look at map again.. haha, i pulled away, she went ta asked an malay auntie, she was kind enough to lead us there, den gf say sp is haunted.. cool, shall explore it nxt~. saw the band members and ex band members.. cool but mommy isnt there, sad.. gf wanted to go to concert alone, hwever i saw ppl buying tics, so i got for myself too.. i don'te want her to be alone watching the concert.. so i followed.. [thank u for letting me accompany u the whole dae.] the concert was nice, reallie.. was enjoying tru out w gf.. she was hungry during the interval, fed her w some chocs :) saw tan kar leong eddie performing.. cool huh.. he dropped his intrument during one of the play.. i recorded some part of the concert. shall show it to mommy tmr.. since she nv came to watched.. saw alot of deyians.. hmmm this shows they are supportive.. thats good..

everyone shouted encore!! encore!! encore!! so did gf, but they played another piece. nice.. reallie.. i like it..

it ended, sat at bus stop waited for gf's daddy, she took a snap on me, trying to act cute infront of gf. to tease her smile.. her smile just warms my heart, i just love to c her smile.. talk a bit here n there..

wow tense moment when we were in her dad's car, u know im scared of her dad, they speak different tongue, however sort of understand a bit when she speak in el again.. tense moment didnt last long, phew, coz she's hungry, her dad went to macs, her dad may seem strict however he dotes on her alot.. can c yup.. so don'te bully ur daddy so much yea..

this is a long entry isnt it gf?
i just wanna be by ur side the whole dae todae. so i stayed tru out.
im ur retarded gf, and ur my gundo gf.. :))
okay? nitez gundo gf.. sleep early okay?
don'te stress n smile like ur retarted gf.. .________.
always be happie..

the kiss of imu at 12:03 AM .

trying to touch up a bit on my f&n, so tat i can score higher. since i cant dropped it now. and why would i want to dropped it. i love f&n as in the cookery part. the theory sucks. but already taken it for like so long. and we most probably her last batch of student, i don'te want to pull her percentage down. it maybe even her last yr. so just wanna get it done and over with. wa.. ytd got lots of calls from everyone, josh, fidel, ex classmates. chaos man. i am so shocked after hearing everything. erm nv work for like 1 week onli, and so many many things happen, nv meet josh for like months. and he just simply fall in love w ex classmates. the most shocking thing is darren n hasy. ah men. darren u lied to me man. how could u!! asshole!! we are brothers lor.. haiz.. ii hope fidel n hasy last, i doubt he can take another blow after mayo. and i can tell u, hasy isnt easy to take care.. monetary.. and fidel n hasy stayed far apart. haha he was complaining to me, and was nearly half asleep.
tiffie,gp,ah gua,daugh. stop blaming urself, since its like tat, and daddy[me] me say will help means will okay.. i know ur stress everytime u face ur mom, just try to be a good gal? i know all this are difficult, but no point blaming urself. learn ur mistakes. do watever u can to help mend ur mistakes. mom n daugh don'te have overnight grudges. reallie. this isnt impossible. so is nothing yea. daddy will help. its time daddy do smth for daugh isnt it?

all right gonna get ready to meet my gf. :)
did u miss me? becoz i just sneezed too :p
i missed u.. did u sneezed :P

the kiss of imu at 10:50 AM .