Wednesday, September 21, 2005
HELLOS. gf invasion again! (Grins) this doofus wont blog for me.. so i shall blog for her then.. but honestly, i dont know what to say.. uhhs.. uhhh well...
i was caught in a very bad situation this evening, and she made it a point to cab down to see me, i dont know if i was pleased to see her of if i felt that she was an irritant. BUT oh wells, seeing my retard always makes me happy.. I didnt end up crying when i met her.. it was more of a neutral talk, with no emotions attached.. I wasn't really paying attention to her when she nagged though.. i couldn't hold my mind there, not when i was smoking and drinking, plus everything was just too much for me to absorb.. but ahh, she was there and that was enough for me.. so I wasn't too suicidal.. in fact, i didn't feel like dying anymore.. i was just depressed and in my own selfish world, i guess...
Ahhh.. anyways, we went back home together since I was having tuition soon, and poor bladder was about to burst any moment.. She sat through the whole entire time I was having my tuition.. Surprisingly quiet for the retarded gf.. (tongue out) It was that so near yet so far feeling when I had to focus on studies and she was right there, behind me.. stoning.. BAHAAHH, so anyways, tuition ended so I have her all to myself NOW.. ALONE..
(evviill) BUT... gf NO SEX DRIVE LAR..
so anyways, I spent the time cuddling with her and uhhs.. being with her? we went through many CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE kitty cat pictures.. SUPER DUPER CUTE PLEASE! omg. i can't believe how much i adore cats.. hehs..
gf's beside me now. arm chio. so silly lar she.
i love you? (pleading eyes)
I read something I wasn't supposed to read yet.. but.. oh well, forgotten but understood.. point taken.. i shall do something about jason and i before she gets to her decision.. i musn't let the past affect me anymore.. gf seems to be more important in my life each day.. what started out as just a crush.. turns out to be more... sooo, what's next? i really wonder...
i love you. yes. really. truly.
+ signing off, isA`02 *kisses gf beside me. (grins)
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