love is in the air ♥

just did my chinese, and watched FULL CIRCLE. heh i saw soo's fren. cool, he acted well. im also proud of Leroy. he's very pretty. its a very touching story. my heart aches a little when i watched it.
met out with josh to study. went to tp. he's late. as always. alright not always. at least ytd his early. before he came, haha, i was at the station waiting for him, when i was abt to sit, this auntie was sitting opposite me just farted. oh man, u can hear the sound and slowly u can smell it. not to be rude to walk away, i was holding my breathe until bro came. then bro ask me this: jae, shld i get a gf? im very dead and cranky. i told him, if love comes, it comes. wait. someone good might be on the way. the next one will be a better one. thats wat i always sae. don'te hurry things. as things might get sour. :)
went to the teens corner, wow, 3/4 of the ppl there knew each other man. so amazing. its like josh and me are like intruders. studied. den became very sleepy. went down to 7 eleven to get Red Bull, sat down on the curb to drink. i was staring at the ground almost half of the time, suddenly i tilt my head, i saw this cart thingg that put bread on rolling towards me. i feel this scene very funny, haha. so be more considerate, i push it back for them. haha.
went back to study. study study. till josh say lets go eat. okay went to banquet. didnt have the appetite to eat. so was listening to jay. jae listen to jay. haha. den went to play pool. wow, i was that close to beat him, bro is pro, but i think after his concussion, his skills are rusty. hahaha. heh i improved. he met his schmates. i think is ex sch mates. i didnt noe i cut finger again. felt the pain. but i deepened the wound by cutting it again. i mean accientally. lucky 2 of my pinkies have healed. if not i will have endless plasters on my fingers, and i don'te know how am i gonna write.
went back to study. josh ask me why am i so moody? i don'te know hw to answer him. so i wrote this.
sometimes its not i don'te want to sae. its i don'te know hw put it. its some kind of feeling that u will feel [hatred,hurt and anger]. so its a mixed feeling. no one can help. only i can help myself. so sorrie bro, i think he had a difficult time. however i hope this feeling will go off soon. i don'te want to affect ppl around me.
fren say: i might look happy, but deep inside im sad. live in sadness, why not live happily? coz everyday bound to have problems coming up. its endless. so why not live happily? daes pass faster this way. i agree with both hands and legs up. lol. coz i noe fren suffers more than i do. fren can it, so can jae.
nothings difficult, as long as u take the first step. always remeber, if u don'te take the first step, u might not noe whats up ahead. u don'te lose anything anyways.
all right thats all for todae.
`back to studies.
maths. oh man.

gf, blink blink*
sad? i lend u my shoulder? or u want my tummy? '_____'
got who sae no one to go out with.
yup me!!! heh.

the kiss of imu at 12:35 AM .

haven been writting proper entries nowadaes. com's down. met up with joy, kelvin recently. was being a darling, went all the way down to 7 eleven get him a drink. have a long talk abt what he had experienced. we 'saw things', its not a good thing. moreover its near your house. 'that thing is like playing hide and seek with me. coz i saw it quite a few times and the second last time, its behind kelvin. and last time was behind the pillar. peeping. i was so wide awake, right after joy finished his story. when both of them were exhausted, joy woke up asked me: why u don'te want to sleep? do u think i can still sleep? i think i can run 10 rounds the carpark w/o feeling tired man.
went back ta school. going back to sch, makes me so happie. :) mommy, juice and me walk to sch. then i told them abt this toy. its a sex toy. its a winding up ancient toy. they laughed. told em i couldnt sleep the whole of last night. den we go on talking abt ghostly things. and some unknown thing like the bermuda triangle and black hole. went back to class. talk and talk. they were so serious. suddenly fishie came in and: POM! haha mommy and juice screamed. hahaha. so funny la. den fishie sae she abt her dreams. so funny can.. fishie fishie... the funniest bung i ever saw. slacked till like 10, start to study. i couldnt take it, so slept. fishie went out, and came back to: POM! again. mommy screamed. hahaha. they juice tole us something in the NS. coz fishie and me wanted to join but due to smth. we back out. coz the both of us doesnt want to go tekong. she said the army boys have to sleep in a line, and the pontiyanak will be on the tree staring at them, to see who's awake, this guy was awake, but he went back to sleep, to pretend to. but the pontiyanak noes, she came down, stand behind him. den i said if its me, i see 'it' right. i will wake all my bunk mates up instead, by hitting their stomach. so they will get a shock and wake up. they laughed and laughed. went to kfc to have our lunch. was arguing where to have our lunch. crapped. laughed.joke. planned abt hols. went home. slept awhile. went to run in the drizzle. sudden urge to do so. ran all the way to the park, jog all the way for only 3.2 km. don'te feel like going on, went home. couldnt breathe properly. think i smoked too much. but after the run, im fine.
studying and studying, but juice kept calling me, the couple bickers. she complained to me. den im like. orr. orr. her biggest obstacle fabian. haiz. i cant do anything. its bro's little brother. i think if i have a time, when u all going for swimming, i will tag along, even if i don'te like, just for ur sake, take fabian away from the both of u. i will take care of him.try all means to get him away, so that u and bro can have time tgt? how abt that? i will try to yup. juice dreamed that i met an accident at lavender. den i told her, i guess its Don, he hit me down with his scooter. she laughed non- stop. coz i owe him class t money. cries* ppl please give me the money. oh, i wrote a will. i feel so sad. i don'te know wat to give to u guys, if i die in that accident. laughs. just don'te cry.
went to st nicks macs to study with mommy and juice. met some weird caucasian man. he's funny, nice though, sudden came and pass some tissue to mommy becoz she's been sneezing non- stop. haha. i brought the toy. the man was so interested in it too. den mommy say there is a series for it. the man laughed. been working on essay qns. did 3 todae. ooh. headache. went home around 3 plus. everyone is dead-beat from humans. bough 3 mags. coz we need the coupons for the chalet. cool we're going to have chalets. smiles wide. '___________'
met josh. since don'te know when never met him. went to find gf.
a simple message from tiffie made me cry, actually, have been bottled up,becoz sometimes i just don'te know who to turn to, angel? so i just leave it aside. couldnt cry when josh's around. daddy misses u too. alot. i miss jie jie and ash.. i miss my gundo zero too, that dog at gf's hse reminds me of zero. i am now staying alone. no one to heed advice from. no jie no ash. no irritating zero. jie and ash made me tear when they say those things to me. izzit studies driving me crazy? or izzit ciggs that mix my emotions up? i just feel lousy. josh say im feeling low self- esteem. maybe. or izzit my hair? argghhh.. chop chop hair!!! don'te feel like sleeping. its a waste of time. i shall study now. bye world. wats coming up. my big big O. don'te know when im gonna blog again. coz com's not always that obedient you see. if im back, im back. did anythign happen on 28 oct? or izzit someone's bdae? why do i find it so familiar. but i couldnt recall anything? is there something special?

the kiss of imu at 3:00 AM .

i don'te know wat to blog abt. coz i have type one in my friendster. i just want to say that i love u, gf, i might not sae it as much. but at times i hope my actions proves it to u. when i sae it, i mean it too.
im sorrie for being so dead. maybe there's no sch. mugging and mugging. is killing me. i reallie miss sch. i will try to find my lively side back. trust me, jae's not like that. she's a clown. a joker.

the kiss of imu at 11:45 PM .

back to work was nice. working with the manager i like, obviously, just smth missing. the people i always work with. wasnt feeling lethagic at all. i sleep for like 11 hours. i didnt know i can sleep so long. coz i wasnt awaken by my alarm, and mom turn it off. so when the moment i woke up, i realise its 10 plus, so i continue to sleep and sleep. and ya morning. it was raining cats and dogs, me and auntie didnt know, we were so prepared for the church crowd to come in. waited and waited. until its time to go off shift. slack for an hour, working is slacking, listening to the elderly's talks. its funny and meaningful. indeed. the 2 mdms and uncle chua got this very humorous talk that i overheard and i kept laughing. they asked uncle chua, does your daugh looks like u? uncle chua shakes head and give a sad look. then mdm say: if your daugh look like u, sure damned sad. then uncle chua say: if my daugh look too pretty, im afraid she will get cheated. if she look too ugly, she will be put onto the shelf for life. then i laugh and laugh. basically he don'te know hw he wants his daugh to look.
den we taught monique dialects. vulgar language. so funny. the funniest thing is she's scolding her own country!! now i realise both mdms i ever had never was a sing. jo, was from canada. monique from shanghai.
smoke with shukri, talk alot along the stairs, recently he found out that he had a long lost sister. which is 2 yrs older then him. den i was wondering, what if i wasnt mom's and dad's daugh. shld i be happie? or shld i not? hahaha. maybe blessing in disguise. i don'te know. i hope it doesnt happen.
supposed to go home after work. don'te feel like going home, walk arnd w monique, den she show me the guy she like. not bad. as in good. but i think i made it too obvious. went to cold storage, looking for the scoop dat she make spoilt. there's lingerie sales like right infront of the counter? isnt it too distracting? haha.. too bad its the last dae. monique wanted to buy and even put reminder on her phone to remind her to buy ermm. laughs* but she was so embarassed.
went ps w monique, feng. monique bought the whole suit of mickey mouse. sandals, shirt and 3 quarts. i got a lighter. and she got her handphone accessory. we keep on arguing, and making the sales gal laugh. i was very picky when i chose my lighter. however i cant upload the pics. com. haiz. feng and i was talking abt 'this bung', our fren, she snatched her fren's gf. if u dare to snatch, why do u scare ppl spread? frenz for don'te know hw many years. arent u guility? nothing to sae.

it was raining endlessly todae.
so sleepy.

i wanted to go to your house, when u left w/o a word.
but i didnt.
sigh.

when cats and dogs arew abused, they can be sent to S.P.C.A.
when lion is abused? where can u send it to?
laughs.

the kiss of imu at 12:15 AM .

com's back. i sort of repaired it. i shal logged a bit so my bud chutx can read it. or might read it. todae i have my graduation ceremony. mommy and tiffie cried. sadness sank in my heart. im leaving this sch. it was mrs yusof's bdae. but she's fasting. she turned down 8 dates. thats sad. she cried terribly after we sang our last sch song. we sanfg it loud and clear, at least i know the sec 5s did. and we did a cheer for the teachers. mrs bird all right, mrs remesh was very touched when we stood up, class 502 stood up and sang the batch song loud and clear, swaying with the music, like we never did. thats the spirit.
we ran arnd like mad to catch teachers to take photos with us. wow, lots of photos. lots of flashes for the past like 2 hours. every part of the sch leaves us memories. so went arnd. took w the p, the vp, almost 3/4 of the teachers. :) every action, every pose, every photo. sigh. if only i could upload the photos. u can c how mad we were, and how loving we were. i love u guys!!! your my best class!! no no no, u are the best sec 5s!!
ate at pastamania. w the gals. crap , joke, laugh, took neos. and after that i had bad headaches. real bad. its been on and off this few daes. it sux. its okay, im working tmr, and sun, i can relieve my stress. i supposed. i don'te want to interfere in any other matters that happened. as im always a neutral. and im working for only this 2 daes. and thats it. im down to hard core mugging. and i mean it. no more jokes. and i will be free.

its more than why i smoke.
there's more to it.
anyway, im sorry.

jo, im sorrie.
`off to sleep.

the kiss of imu at 12:43 AM .

hmm, my blogger is back to normal. im glad. yea, things are bothering me, but at times i just want to look happie. or at least try to be. gp, never come to sch, for like 2 daes. mrs lim was being nice to us on fri, and the class was very small, we did rock cookies. when i was doing my cookies, u're the only one im thinking abt. :)
now, i can't write notes, or even do 10 yrs series, or exam papers. was too engrossed abt my cookies, i left my pencil case in the F&N room, i only realised it when i reached home. im rushing to go out. met gf, to give her the cookies i made. and i gave her a card. hah, know wat? i got the sort of, wrong card. after i bought, den i realised.
left gf house, stayed for only an hour or so. coz she having tuition. so i think i shant stay. called manp, went down to novena. i miss em. smoke w mayo, saw this guy, knew smth's on w mayo. im right, she's the belle of novena kfc. got quite a lot of new staff, bawan quit, den shukri complained to me that,mdm anyhw planned his roster and the bag he wanted was so ex. which is the sling i always carry. den he like my hair and wanted to cut the same as mine. bawan got a new job, he's working as a security at some condo. but the timing sucks. went in, at last, at last, i saw monique, everytime i get dwn, she's always not there. feng was so excited to see me. helped manp clean, coz the new staff is slow. den we talked, and she told me she's going to marry her sort of cousin. im like huh? was so hungry, lucky manp still got some popcorn, and i ate. i just want to sae smth, although i don'te have the right, ppl, stop being childish! don'te provoke. manp has been very patient, to the guy. whoever u are. do u got balls? don'te always sms manp for nth, scolding her this and that. wat abt u? just another loser. see her in sch, put ur head down. oh man. damned losers!! shut ur asses up ppl!!
waited for mayo and 2 darrens. and feng. basically everyone. walked pass bullfrog, so happie, the singer is singing more than words. and sang along, feel so much like going in, den mayo asked whether wanna go play pool, so i sae all right, smoke again, wow, heaven knows. i sing and sing.
i was saying my lame jokes again. hahaha. everyone laughed. the other darren is showing attitude. so we left him. on the way to the snookerium, feng was molested by these 2 drunkards, coz all of us were walking infront, suddenly she screamed! so shocked! i tot she will cry. lucky she didnt. long queues, hmm, this darren is rather gentleman, he got a chair for mayo. we played some machine game to kill time, the other darren call, so me and manp went off earlier. i acc manp to mrt station, scared to meet those drunkards again. took bus down to look for darren, ate at the same place, tok, smoke and wait for them to come down. talked and talked. den darren said i was in moodswing, coz i keep singing non stop. coz i got nth much to sae, don'te feel like toking much, so just sing.
gf, called, but both of us are bothered. and sorrie, i think i said too much. coz was very bothered by wat jo said. however, i shldnt believe so much. im not gonna repeat hist. never. shakes head.
wanted to drink, too bad, fuck man. cheers stop selling at 9, when we went there was like 1 plus. spoiled my mood even more. coz me and mayo were choosing. till the salesperson came. went to darren's old place to sit and crap. smoke and talk. den listen to feng, i cannot take the fact that the hyprocrite is the person i adore the most. am i just being too gullible? or being too neutral? haiz. i feel sad.
den when mom came home, she told me somethings abt working too, she asked me to be more alert when working, beware of those hyprocrites. don'te let em ruin ur future. den i said there's hyprocrites in kfc. im gonna be a graphic designer, hmm den i cant trust anyone, to tell em my ideas. anyway its a very realistic world, if u wanna stand out, show ur talent. don'te use underhand methods, or be a hyprocrites.

my only gal. isa. i love u.
and only u, no one else.

the kiss of imu at 10:44 PM .

todae's kenny's bdae. happie birthdae, irritating boy!! haha.. woo, its cold in the morning. haha i can hear fishie ans juice voice outside the class. the first thing fishie told me was: jae, if u cannot take it, pls leave the classroom. den i saw farhana sitting next to fishie. den i laughed, coz i love to irritate fishie. heh, nu ren came to sch at last, its been like a week since she last been to sch. den we tok and tok in the F&N room till fren sae that lim nv come. then we went to i- space since classroom is occupied by the D&T student. oh man, little moustache took over, i wanted to do physics. den i change to math instead, oh man, he don'te even noe hw to do math. coz nu ren asked him one qn. his ans is wrong and i doubt he understand the question anyway. he left half way. den i went to sit w banana, tiffie and chutx. i don'te know when did we start to take snap shots. and mommy n me were acting spastic. hahaha, its reallie funny. coz i helped mommy tied the hair same as the drawing on the board. den tiffie tied one for me too. and we began our spas photo taking. hahaha. and we got addicted, and kept taking and taking. till 3 periods are over. sort of wasting time.. but its fun.. went for p.e onli the 3 bungs and fren p.e , mommy and gals didnt bring p.e t shirt. hahaha, fishie wore spongebob boxers. the gals were so fascinated. shakes head. kick soccer. haha all the time me and fishie wanted to aim tiffie and mommy. but whenever we aim, the ball will go haywired. when we accidentally fly ball, it will surely land over there. hahaha. wa. it hurts, when u don'te have a shin guard to help u stop the ball.
we went back class. we agreed not to go for recess, but we went in the end, den mommy tickle me, den i start to sing the belly dancer song by akon. and its damned funny, if u watched his video. hahaha. i sort of mimicked him in his action, and tiffie cant stop laughing, and she keep asking me to do it again!! again and again!! hahahaha. went back class, den i told fishie abt the song, den me and fishie did it on the passage way, and everyone laugh till they drop!! esp. tiffie.
mrs gan was so worried abt the Bali incident, when fishie keep 'bomb' infront of her, and she got irritated and agitated. however fishie couldnt stop doing it. so she did softly.
den mrs gan was suspecting fishie and farhana. coz mrs gan's from IJ sch, she said she noe abt all this thing. den she saw fishie's file contain farhana's baby pics, so she was convinced that the both of them are tgt. den mommy sabo sae there's another pic of farhana behind the file. and mrs gan went to snatch from fishie. it was so funni, fishie keep denying. and mrs gan keep insisting, den fishie told us the story of the photographer, its supposed to be sad, but she make it sounds like a joke can. this is how it starts w fishie voice:' she passed away! she died! that dae, she was bathing w the soap on the floor, den she inside the bathroom bath and dance for an hour, den her mother went in, found her dead on the floor. isnt it funny? den fishie said this: pity sia! i tok to her on the fone but nv get to see her!
went out of ITR, den i asked fishie to dance the belly dancer again to spite mrs gan, den she laughed till her face turned red. fishie is so funny la, i laughed and laughed non - stop. it was fun, till we got back our result slip. we gonna really buck up, and sch will be open till 9 pm staring on fri. so we'll be going back to sch to study. everyone is very depressed w their result except ter. he's so happie.
went ta cut hair, mommy and i was choosing the hair that i want and the amount of hiar i have to cut the hairstyle. and its nice, heh, i nv keep my hair longer den a month long. and i did. mommy say now i look more neat. hope gf will like my hair. :)
yeah. meeting my baby isa tmr. so happie.

baby jae love baby isa.
#22 love #02.
please don'te say that anymore. okay?

the kiss of imu at 9:18 PM .

hmm. shall blog for my baby isa. hehe. wa, stressful dae, had 6 periods of humanities. its good though. but tiring. at least my made orange go for the extra lessons. she wasnt concentrating. and she's bored and she started to bla and bla and non stop. talking abt bl. i listen, nodding my head. or answered her :orr. going to 4 months. thats fast huh. i didnt realise it til she told me. i don'te want to make any comment, coz bl is sort of my bro too. coz he isnt like that to us. he's very active and ya irritating, like to bully. i think she took orange for granted. me n choo been trying to help the both of them alot. by telling bl wat orange realie want. but he have to realise this by his own. how? any way we are the third party, we cant help much. i just hope and pray things will be good. :)

heh, the geo students have pizzas. i helped them to call for 241. haha. canadian pizza. 241. haha. so jealous.

doing math w fishie is so funny. haha when the 3 of us tgt. haha, we'll definitely do something stupid haha. i forgotten wat we did. but we have a great time. movie marathorn after the Os. and sentosa. our post exam acitivity. more to come. oh ya.

FRENZ PLEASE COME TO SCHOOL OFTEN. WE ONLY LEFT WITH ANOTHER WEEK AND WE'LL BE GOING FOR STUDY WEEK. PLEASE COME SCHOOL!!!

baby jae_heart_baby isa.
baby jae: bla bla bla [baby talk to baby isa]

the kiss of imu at 9:21 PM .

i still cant reallie post any entry, due to my screwed up blogger. whenever its time to blog, i wont know wat to blog.
juice: i onli come to realisation, thats why i send u that testi. and im happie. that i have a bud like u.
the thing i wanted to sae and was blushed to tell u was: you're gorgeous and sexy. its been long since i last met u. altho we sort of wore what we wore on the first dae we met. but the feeling is different. i just feel that u look very pretty ytd night.

i doubt anyone will make any comments anymore. they will onli give me their support.
i love u.

oh ya todae is joy's bdae. i couldnt reached him. i feel very sad. coz i couldnt celebrate w him neither can i even wish him.

happie birthdae joy!!

"Let Me Love You"
Mmmm ..... Mmmmm.... Yeah....Mmmmm....Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
Mmmm...Yeah....Mmmm..... Yeah, Yeah
[Verse 1:]Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are, you stick around and
I just don't know why
If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good things)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

[Chorus:]You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

[Verse 2:]ListenYour true beauty's description
looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes,
Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

[Chorus:]You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

[Bridge:]You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl
(baby)With me and you it's whatever girl,
hey!So can we make this thing ours?

[Chorus:]You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you
[repeat til it ends (about 3 times)]
[Mario (talking):]Let me love you that's all you need baby
correction: jae talking to u. #02.

the kiss of imu at 10:11 PM .

no songs suit how i feel, or how i shld feel. todae's arent a nice dae. anyway it ended. take a deep breath, start a fresh. im sleepy, i want to sleep.

`wake me up when september ends- green day.
its time 502 wake up.

i love u, isa.

the kiss of imu at 12:10 AM .