Thursday, March 30, 2006
i just heard one of my favourite song, bet this entry will take a long time.. where is she, where is she, where is this beautiful gal? who is she? who's gonna complete my world? YOUNG rocks.. he plays all my favourite songs..
i cannot get feeling back. cannot concentrate when all my favourite songs are playing, i also cant turn it off.. trying my best.. hahaha.. anyway i just made juliana angry..
sometimes i just don'te feel the family bonding anymore. holding my mom's hand seems foreign to me.. looking at my dad it disgust me.. looking at the house, it bores me.. hearing the same thing over and over again, it deafens my hearing system. not sometimes, but my house slowly has became my hotel. its only use for leisure times. i only bath, use my laptop, sleep, go toilet. most of my happy times been spent out of this boundary. i can never find the warmth and bla bla i used to get. i cant see it, i cant feel it, i cant touch it. am i slowly turning into some unfeeling ingrate? or slowly became some cold- hearted animal? what actually happened to this family? some man, wanted to woo mom again.. wats new? if the both of them divorce or not, my mom remarried or not. i will not call the next man, dad. i seldom call my dad, why should i bother to call another man? (im just saying wat if). i meant if such things happened, i rather ton outside. when u really need a stick, its either you don'te have or you got no excused to get away to smoke. i think thats all i thought or over-reacted.
supposed to write ytd, i got into Laselle. but have to sit for some el test. coz i got a 7. lets start from the beginning. let's skip the interview stuff. anyway the interviewer's name is derrick. and he's handsome, stylish, have a goatee.
we were waiting for for nur, the bims came, then feeza was interested in the heels she's wearing so feeza went ta asked: sorry, tat dae we wore a pair of yellow heels right? where did u get it from? she answered: from tommy hilfiger. feeza answered: oh.. when i went to the room, feeza burst out laughing... she sells shoe. and obviously she recognised her shoe. the bim bought it from her shop.. hahaha.. so the bim lied..moreover, tommy never sells heels right, tiff? omg.. went town to meet sha sha, was late.. it was her bdae, but all of us her broke.. haha.. so went to coffee bean and bought her a muffin.. she made a very touching wish.. she hope all of us will be her best fren forever.. :) thats sweet. had 2 muffins and a drink for 2.60.. haha.. thanks to feezha. her primary sch fren working there.. her cousin working at topshop. cool man to have her.. i can get discount everywhere.. hahaha..kept taking pics..
before going to esplanade, we went to the bus stop infront of heeren and waitin for bus 14 stupidly.. till gary saw bus 14 and wanted to stop the bus, but the bus ignored him. till we knew that there's no bus 14 over at that bus stop. let's make it fast, before smth wrong with my connection again.. took alot of pics.. i meant spastic ones.. haha.. with jae, who will not be spas?
read my only draft ytd.. felt like crying.. and read my old entries.. i think i have selectively lost of memory. i forgotten many things.. but some i couldnt.. oh ya going for new job interview tmr..
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