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happie birthdae to myself..since its my bdae.. happie birthdae to jae, happie birthdae to jae, happie birthdae to myself..

met joyce at kallang todae to go back to school to do our student card.. took bus, we were actually standing infront of this ah mah, and we started chatting away, suddenly she just speak in some dialect, that both of us don'te understand.. so we continued to talk.. wat the hell, she suddenly shout at the both of us, she even used her umbrella..the auntie sat behind her mumbled smth to joyce.. and we went quiet all the way till we reached school.. went up to second level before waiting for gary.. it was rather fast to make our card.. i looked a bit like simpson though.. its only per shot.. so didnt expect it to look nice.. waited for gary.. waited outside the bus-stop to wait for miss sha sha.. she left her house.. i was told she went to Hawaii with a guy she got click on, at which ever bar she's working.. i was shocked pls.. she went to Hawaii with an anonymous guy that u barely know him well.. u may say im conservative or watever.. its just that u don'te know this gal, im rather afraid of her decisions sometime.. waited till like 5.30 and we cabbed down to cinni.. bought tics for 'just my luck'.. went to pasta mania for my pasta, i've been hungered for more than 15 hrs.. half way eating, my phone rang, thought was teo.. he always call me.. nope its miss cutie.. if u were there, u will laugh at my face pls.. my pasta is in my mouth, half way dangling and im staring at my phone.. first reaction: joyce, she called me!! joyce: answered the phone!!..
and now u knew my blog.. i felt so bare.. the gal u like knew everything abt your feelings.. but i knew nothing much abt u.. lucky this morning i didnt blog abt smth i reallie wanna sae.. now i think i must be careful, cause she will be reading it.. i don'te know when.. but some dae..
nu ren acc me talk till 12 am, im finally 18 pls.. before that i teared outside shaw plaza, when i asked teo out to smoke.. hazel and fei might see.. i don'te know.. i felt very empty.. very sad abt smth else.. then i keep mumble to myself, scolding myself.. i think im very weak.. but i missed u guys.. moreover jo, keep asking me wat i wana do.. wat i reallie wanna do.. is leave singapore.. very sad.. but i pick myself up.. i shant be sad.. its my bdae.. cause i tot wat u said..
since im 18, went to 7 eleven to buy ciggs.. i took my student card cum ic out.. unlce tot its 2 different person.. i think i will have difficulty buying ciggs and liquors next time.. teo said thats my bdae biggest joke.. yes it is.. my cake is very special, i got a stick of cigg as my candle and sara lee butter cake from 7 eleven.. hahaha.. so style right.. i felt all my chickens the cake.. stuff them into their mouth.. oh ya i want to be childish tmr.. for the last time.. i got a st pats tie.. gonna wear white long sleeve and that tie out. hahaha.. i got 3 presents.. gonna have 15 more tmr.. so happie.. mommy's sick.. haiz.. im an unfillial daugh.. god pls bless my mom.. she's the best mom i ever had.. thanks for not dumping me or giving me away 13 years ago..

im more sensible than u thought
though i look childish..
u're not even older then me, don'te use words like that on me
use that on urself.. wtf
oh ya thats my life.. none of your business..
i hate ppl to say smth like that, when they mean nth to me..
oh ya, i've always planned my future well..
oh, thanks anyway..

the kiss of imu at 11:09 AM .

you made my day.. u reallie did.. im having headache now.. trying to digest that few blogs..i just cut my hair... i want to shave botak pls.. its ugly.. but they trying to convince me that i don'te look bad.. i don'te reallie look bad..
i shall not share wat happened just now.. wat happened shall keep it in my heart..
haiz, didnt know u haven recover..
poor thing..
sorrie, bought too many sweets..
cause i don'te know wats your favourite..
first thing came into my mind..
i just want u to recover soon..
just want to let u know,
i reallie care for you,
every care and concern i give,
comes from my heart,
its never fake,
i only hope,
my true care and concern,
will touch u one day?
will there be that day?

if im uncle, that u shall be my auntie okay? smiles..

you're so cute pls..
ahhhh!!! hahahaha!!

the kiss of imu at 1:20 PM .

just reached home.. another supper.. im gonna be a fat lion in no time.. feel like asking teo to go gym later.. but i doubt anyone of us will be able to wake up.. todae went out with joy and jo.. went to town.. wow, its been a long time since i went fareast shopping.. just going to check my tattoos price.. didnt check, cause they look rather unfriendly.. the two keep talking abt JESUS,MARY,GOD,CHURCH!!! bla bla bla... plus DA VIN CI CODE.. headache.. missing her in my head.. worrying her in my head..
went to pasta mania to have alfredo and carbonara.. so nice.. yum yum.. ilips licking good.. hahaha.. down to bugis.. cinni is boring.. joy bought a bag.. a nice one.. for sch... some fucking problem happened.. till now i believed, his reallie the only one who understood how i felt.. if u know i mean.. not gonna rake up the past.. why? darling, why do u wanna feel howi felt? why do you ask god smth like that? silly.. haiz..
actually when we went out, it isnt tat boring.. im just blogging for fun.. bdae's coming.. not excited at all... when u know u have to pay money and bla bla.. it just sucks..
To: my cliques.
not to be mean, lets not celebrate my bdae yup.. not that i wanna be alone.. just send me wishes.. i will be very happie.. no tat i wanna spent with chickens or classmates.. i don'te know wat will happen that dae.. but i don'te something boring.. i wanna do smth that i felt happie abt.. so yup wishes will be good.. don'te waste money on presents too.. becoz i know im a difficult person to get present for.. don'te bother abt anything... moreover, its difficult to get wat i want..
sorrie if im rude or too straightforward... please accpet my apology.. buddy, if anyone see this, pls pass it around.. im not gonna send any message.. sorrie for the inconvenience and trouble..

im very tired now..
i wanna sleep..
hope u're fine.. wanted to buy a helium balloon and a bear and asked jo or hazel to give to you.. but don'te bother.. want to go take a look at you.. also scare... im scare u will hate to see me..

the kiss of imu at 1:07 PM .

when feng called and said you're sick.. my first reaction was:huh? how come? very worried till my face look constipated. haha.. thats wat uncle zainal said.
thinking of bringing u to see doctor..
but i think u will reject me..
thought of getting u some med or smth..
im scare u have drug allergy.. i don'te want u to end up like my daugh..
thinking of getting u flowers..
i scare u think too much..
thought of giving u a bear with a helium balloon..
chickens scold me mad..
my creativity cells died.. i have no idea left..
not gonna give u anything..
just hope u take care..
drink loads of water..
have plenty of rest..
wanted to message u that, if not feeling well, don'te go to work..
but i think don'te need.. u will only reply me half way..
stop sigh-ing.. u're getting older each dae..
trying and forcing myself to give up..
why didnt u reject me straight? doesnt it make your life better..
and my heart less hurt?

the kiss of imu at 11:50 PM .

firstly happie birthdae keane, happie birthdae cyrus, and happie birthdae yang the superwoman, and happie birthdae to peggy and happie birthdae to jae jae.. > i just came home not long, been stuffing rice, cauli,celery, bittergourd into my mouth.. and chewing like a fish.. hah, i just met fishie, yang, chef faz,yani,yana,fil, yang's new bf, riduan, rajan. oh ya 3 more daes rajan bdae..
im starting to talk nonsense again..
im gonna sleep.. will be talking in detailed later on..

i missed you.. can i have a picture with you for my bdae wish?
please?

the kiss of imu at 11:57 AM .

i just finished some unfinished ikan porridge.. yucks.. but was superb hungry.. finally i decided to blog.. after MOS, i fall sick.. until now, im alot better.. recovering.. just had a gathering with the big grp.. a bbq at east coast, its a memorable one.. we had like rambo rock? 2 ppl in 3 legs games, soccer.. but was spoiled by the weather.. i still rmbed wat i said to daugh and priya abt cycling... its definitely a very relaxing thing to do.. i did relaxed, throughout the way cycling with nu you and nu ren... haha.. had fun..
todae its nu ren's bdae, called her on the way home till it struck 12.. yup, i guess this yr's bdae will not be as fun as last.. i can feel it.. things will never be the same again..
hmmm, went down to towner.. smiles.. saw my miss cutie.. she made me blushed like tomato.. thats wat they described me as.. on the way, pinky came along.. haha, is teo la.. i ordered him too.. they all left us alone.. so i pulled him along.. we were talking abt a r/s problem that is going on..
my gf is coming back to work... he's my biggest challenge... seeing everything, i don'te know.. i doesnt want to put my hopes so high and had a great fall again.. very tiring.. basically, im feeling rather low.. thinking lots negative stuff.. to actually prepare myself..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NU REN!!

im slowly falling for you
i know u know, i also know
i saw something special in you that no one else saw
only i saw, onlyi know
because im being true to you

the kiss of imu at 10:46 AM .