love is in the air ♥

back from town.. had a hair cut.. wanna know the hairstylist name? hah. jack.. not bad quite good looking.. hmm, orientation was kind of boring.. had an hour talk, barely can hear wat they say.. we caught some here and there.. sha was like mumbling and mmbling to me.. and falling asleep soon.. feeza was so late, she had to go to the second one instead, so she had to wait for joyce.. hah.. joyce never gets tired of talking.. went out to smoke right after the talks over, i told ya i will definitely die early, thanks to sha.. every like 10mins, she will say, i feel like smoking.. went to media room, watched some german oldies movie, black and white, speak in german.. talking war, love bla bla.. ran away like half way.. its gonna bore us to death.. went to the studio for making movies.. cool, we had like actor and actress, thats gary and eileen.. becoz they were wearing blue, so they were videoed on cam, and played on big screen.. so funny.. and they actuallie brief abt how they actuallie make 'king kong', 'titanic'.. one of the programme that woke me up was 'the stomp'.. so cool.. i like their music... i videoed a bit.. was so engrossed in it pls.. very sleepy.. gonna sleep.. nitez..

the kiss of imu at 8:40 AM .

just woke up.. school starts like later on.. yawn.. orientation for like the whole week.. i got all my stuff.. fucking ex pls.. fucking heavy also.. jie was out with us ytd.. wow.. she wore until very sexy.. very pretty.. she bought shirts for me.. niceeee... my belated present.. they nearly kill me.. brought me to SASA.. and TAKA, perfumes place.. my brain nearly got poisoned.. coz i cant breathe.. and it feel as though my head became some balloon, gonna burst anytime.. filled of toxic.. so damned bloody strong..
went i sent jie to bus stop she asked me this: why did u wanna turn bung?
i answered: donnoe, i think im more masculine.. and i think im better than guys..
she gave me that look..
jie also got think of turning straight..
then i ask her can u even leave ash? although ash let her leave..
but she was disgusted by guys..

gonna run along.. if not will be late..

the kiss of imu at 5:01 PM .

breathe in breathe out.. im boiling.. boiled.. super angry.. if this goes on..
less than 10 years, i will have heart attack..
less than 8 years, i will go in and out of hospital, prolly ttks..
less than 5 years, doc will say i have high blood pressure, on medication..

to prevent such things happen im trying to relax.. breathe in and out.. u might think its funny.. coz i've not been that angry ever seen months..

when u know im angry, don'te talk to me.. don'te try to make up the mistakes.. don'te provoke me.. don'te ask me why, use ur brain to think.. wait till i talk to you, thats when im chilled, i will look for you.. thats me.. i don'te like to beg or ask for help, unless i realie cant.. if not i wont.. too bad, genes from dad and mom, indeed very strong genes.. STUBBORNESS..

so sad, joyce and me is in different class.. im in k, she's in x.. ahhhhh.. i hope i will either be with feeza, vincent, sha, gary, stefanie, eileen.. someone i know.. if not i gonna bored to death..

when i miss you.. i wont reallie call or sms.. coz i don'te want to disturb u..
i will tell chickens.. or say it to your pics..
sound rather sick.. hahaha..

the kiss of imu at 12:12 PM .

i feel the stress, excitement, anxious-ness coming towards me.. starting school in approximately 2 - 3 days time..jae's so clever, now then start sketching drawing..trying to design.. becoz i've been busy selling chickens.. ya know.. anyway, gonna stop for awhile and concentrate on school..
oh ya lets start 12 july- i was working 4-10.. if im not wrong its a wed, becoz rey is off.. its hazel and rey's anni.. rey called me, say: tong lei, she's working todae, shumin told me.. i was like.. hmm happy.. then after that, towner called and they needed staff.. mdm asked teo.. then i was jumping and shouting: i want to go!! i want to go there work!! i want i want!! mdm and auntie rejected.. i was so sad.. but ya, then i think back, if she's working, hazel working.. why they need so many staff? i think back, i doubt she's working.. im right.. my mood from so high.. dropped.. then rey messaged me, she's not working, no need to come down.. but i still went.. becoz teo owe me money.. opened the door, saw wai mun, first thing, oh she never work, why u come down? ken saw me: hey, u 're here, but she never work, why u come down? i was like hmmm, i know lah!! i know she never work la..
took cab down to auntie nick's house, supposed to suprise my idiotic buddy.. haha.. becoz i got lost at that place before.. moreover its night, that place is scary pls.. so i asked her the address.. stayed over.. i bought her a cake, wanted to get her vodka current, out of stock.. pepper and dusty were at auntie nick's house.. pepper is so hyper, when she was led out, came jumping all over me.. its kinda boring here.. cut the cake, went up..i forgotten why we went up.. then jo's dad was online, so she have to talk to him.. we had a video conversation with her dad.. we actuallie didnt know, our voice was captured.. until we saw the volume moving up and down.. until like 1 plus we got out of the house.. i ate alot pls.. and we did some stupid experiment.. wasted money on that pls.. went back in the house, jo acc me for a moment, and she fell asleep.. left me alone, with 2 dogs, pepper kept following me.. watched some stupid chi satanic show.. i still couldnt sleep.. and that bdae gal slept like a pig.. the room is like brrrrr.. and the woman beside me kept snatching my blanket away.. and mommy, didnt got my note, woke me up at 5.45 in the morning when i slept at like 4.. i rmbed i said smth like that to jo: u kick my ass! and i went back to sleep..
went macs to have breakfast, i woke up early becoz of her.. brought 2 dogs out.. everyone's looking at us.. although we are some rich kids staying at that condo.. we were the main attraction pls.. every place we went.. im yawning, don'te rmb much.. i only know i nearly trip this 2 gals that just came down from the bridge.. thanks to pepper the les dogs.. hahaha.. jo bought veet, becoz i asked her to wear skirt.. omg, she wanted to spray that on my brows.. idiot.. it wasnt effective.. i was so sleepy.. that i only managed to send her to joel's arm.. my bro retarded to me, his hair.. went home and slept..
went down to shaw with faz, faz and me were disturbing her.. it was tan ling ling shift.. me and tong lei and faz were talking.. she very busybody.. when she talk, her hands and brain cannot coordinate.. she cannot multi task.. she's very bubbly, laughed at everything.. the bag leak, when we went to throw rubbish.. the scene was so funny.. tan ling ling pulled her to shaw plaza to mop the floor.. then she came over for attachement, mdm want me to tag with her.. wa, she bullied me and faz.. stored 3 orders.. one new toy, 1 chicken chop meal, one chicky meal.. and i have to slowly clear it.. keep asking me to take order for her.. then she dazed over there.. then i kept nag at her, wa, she call me uncle!! arrgggh.. then i call her xiao gui.. omg! so tiring pls..
oh ya, melissa came and have dinner at kfc.. were fighting with manp that it was melissa.. until we asked faz to come out.. hahaha.. thats abt all..

i don'te know whether i feel shy when i see you or inferiority?
but i do miss you terribly..
sigh.. pls take care of yourself yup..
i hoped ur answer; okay.. means u will promise me wat i tell u to do..

the kiss of imu at 10:50 AM .

it always come to this point of time where i don'te know how to start my entry.. too many things to say.. lets say whats not that impt first.. im 10 days away till school starts.. finally, school starts.. wow 8 months of hols.. slack like shit, spend like hell.. new environment, new start.. i hope it will be a good start..
chickens went toning ytd.. fei,hazel,faz, fida and me.. we were talking abt chickens, not as in drumsticks as in the group.. what we like and don'te like abt each other.. haha, turned out to be quiet.. coz we have not much to say.. we talked abt the past, before i joined them.. abt how fida and faz start their r/s.. and the things before that.. between fida and this gal.. hahaha.. so telepathy, so funny, so cute.. and fei's past, abt some triangle love between brother and sister, its been proven that she's popular among both sexes.. talked abt rides, hotel, cycling, some of them scare to take pirate ships, bla bla bla.. we wanted to sleep at fragrance hotel.. and hotel 81, coz the most hotel 81 can take in 3 heads per room.. thinking that our next pay shall we go hotel to sleep.. and they wanted to go night riding.. sure to have lots to explore..

went out of macs, coz its too cold.. sat at the stairs near the interchange, we were talking abt some phenomenon things.. talking abt religion.. stories of our experiences.. wat we saw, hazel was sleeping. actuallie all of us saw, except fei, she saw 1.. if im not wrong i saw 3.. all of us kept quiet.. till we reached the interchange then we discussed.. the funniest part to miss fida, coz my bus was the latest, when we saw was 6:01, so we went to have breakfast.. around 6, we walked to bus 88, then faz said your bus come already.. so did fida.. so i happily ran there, and the bus driver closed the door, i stared at him with a shock face, he stared back.. i did the why sign, he showed me the time side with his stupid sunshine strawberry bead and off the light.. i went back to the grp, they laughed at me.. hahahaha..

supposed to meet jo this afternoon or evening.. overslept.. moreover its a nice weather to sleep in.. and went sleepy throughout the day.. been eating and sleeping..

wats meant to be seperated, will be seperated..

hoped u did well for ur oral..
i bet u can do it..
next time don'te forget yup..
get well soon..
don'te so naughty and eat smth u're not supposed to eat..
drink lots of water..
take care..
see you soon can?
you're missed..

the kiss of imu at 8:23 AM .

i wasnt in my right mind.. after finished smoking downstairs, i went straight into bathroom.
sat down on the bathroom floor, let the running water gush onto my head, staring in the blank, my mind's blank too, till i heard my message tone, then i came to my senses.. its u who replied..
now is the funny part. i brought my bag in, after i had my bath, only then i realised, i never my towel in.. searching for pails whether there's any towel.. nope, until i realised i have a face towel.. ya a face towel, wat can it cover? either up or down right? i covered neither, i covered my face.. why? at least i wont see anything, won't make me feel more shy.. thats wat i always do, whenever i don'te like to see the person i see or my mom.. but my mom, i never try before.. hahaha..

i don'te see you everyday,
these are just somethings i want to do for you,
let me do it? can?
i hoped to make u feel cared, love? (maybe not yet)..
no matter wat there's jae,( though u don'te call me that)..
no matter how tired i am, i noe u're also very tired.
i just wanna use every bit of my strength i have, to help u..
i don'te know when's the last day i will see you..
but know the day is drewing near..
i wont be able to do as much as i do now, becoz i wont know.. wats going on..
becoz some time, i don'te even know wat to message u abt..
sigh..

just hope u don'te find me bothersome,
just hope u don'te avoid me..
doing so much,not to touched your heart, never carry a hope u will accept me..
becoz its only one- sided..
thats abt it i think..
i will wait.. i have the patience..

last thing, you're not lousy..
don'te ever say that!
i will get angry..
i will not fall for a lousy girl..
you're just blur, cute, nice, caring, passive, quite clever, cool, quite man, cheerful (there's always sadness lies behind the smile?)
more than words can describe

the kiss of imu at 12:29 PM .

where should i start, should i start where i stop? i don'te remember where i stop.. just talk abt ytd then.. when to pek kio to play bb.. there's pinky, feng, rey, hazel,faz, fida, elva. thats all the bb khaki.. have to wait for feng to finish her paper work.. then bus down to pek kio, dropped at the wrong stop.. hahaha.. but the street idiot, which is me. still got my way to the community centre.. played ABC.. haha i was the winner.. rey, pinky and hazel is still on the way.. waited, suddenly this weird man came to talk to us and say : can u don'te bounce the ball, i have a baby at home.. and he limped away.. fida scolded him, smth like that.. we wont haapie abt it.. but still continued to play.. till they came, and we had a match.. fida's laughter is addictive pls.. it weakens your muscle.. fuck, pinky threw the ball right at my face.. i got a concussion for quite some time.. everyone burst out laughing.. my nose hurt the most pls.. so is my forehead.. its a new, real leather ball.. lucky it didnt disfigure my face.. later on, fida felt how i felt too.. pinky just slammed the ball onto her eye.. she was so drama pls.. hahaha.. u know wat, pinky love to play foul, he like to hook my hand or pull my shirt or slapped for nothing.. idiot, total idiot.. i was angry with him.. but it was fun too..
that guy came down again, he's half naked with only boxers.. damned i didnt took his pics down.. u're in singapore, u're not supposed to get down half nakedly.. its against the rule.. since he wanted to call police.. but yup, we let the matter rest.. so i don'te know where are we gonna play bb tmr.. same place?
went back to the coffee shop and had chicken wings.. faz and me promised fida that we will smoke 1 stick per dae.. cutting down a lot.. there's so many things that are restricted, more over its so ex.. plus we have our reasons like he's doing it for fida.. im doing it partly for her and myself..
walked to mustafa, its kinda ulu yup.. but still manage to reached there, coz we were talking abt kidnapping, rape, bla bla bla.. talking abt my sis's fren's fren..
walked around mustafa, boughted boxers, bought fish ball, mun to, milk, crab meat, green tea alot of things.. cabbed back to ah feng house to cook the food.. and watched tape at the same time..

i dreamt of you, but was awaken by feng..
i reallie do miss you.. misses you alot
lucky i have a video of you..
smth that is moving..
when u went in that day, went i was sitting outside.
i was anxious, worried when i was waiting outside.
i won't ask you, wat happen. coz its privacy.
but looking at you, crying so bitterly,
it reallie do hurt me..

the kiss of imu at 7:13 AM .

ever since after my bdae im very lazy to blog.. but todae is WONG JIA PING bdae.. she's 22 years old.. old woman.. hahaha.. she's my jie jie.. happie birthdae jie.. okay jo i blogged.. hahaha..
i will blogged tmr.. or when im more awake.. gonna go train my muscle..

the kiss of imu at 11:53 AM .