Tuesday, September 19, 2006
im demoralised, depressed, turning autistic soon,very lack of sleep . i didnt turn up for my 3D presentation.. so did the 4 of them.. have been staying over with teresia.. to support and make sure she do her 3D and accompany her.. coz michelle went back home, she's scared to stay home alone in that big flat.. lost my cap on the cab on the way to her house.. coz i only got 2 hands and i took off my cap when im on the cab.. i was in my boxers when im doing my box, she went to bath, then i was outside watching tv and doing my work, i only know her ex-gf and michelle got her keys.. i heard ppl trying to open the door, im like having speech bubbles inside my head, like fuck, don'te tell me its her ex.. but its her mom and dad, they came back.. the mom pointed at me and asked: who are you? i stammered.. im teresia's fren.. the mom was kinda nice after that, gave me some cakes and food.. her dad bought her a guess bag and a watch.. becoz she don'te want her mom and dad to nag.. so we went into the room, she showed me her past photos and baby pictures.. i actually brought mine too.. so we were talking and talking abt her younger and our retarded days.. funny.. then her fren called.. so i went out cause im bored.. went to draw circles.. went out to macs with our work, coz we are hungry.. brought our stuff.. sat down at macs, ordered food, talked and eat.. till 2 plus and we started to do our work.. then whenever i want to reply her the cars passed by, and she will like:huh?? everytime i wanna talk the cars, lorry, bikes passed by.. so i shouted, act retarted.. laugh non stop..
went back around 5 plus, im still cutting my circles, she's still drawing and cutting her donnoe diamond or kite shape.. till around 6.40, i cannot take it so we went in to take a nap.. she's still doing her polygon, i try to sleep.. woke up at around 10.30am.. i was the one who disturb her again, i threw bolster at her, and she woke up immediately.. coz she got nightmare of my circles.. haha, so cute la.. her nightmare was she was standing on the artcut, running away from this monster with 2 blades on its hands and trying to kill her and she's wearing heels and everytime she step on this artcut the thing will break apart.. hahaha..
here comes the demoralising part.. its going to rain or it started to rain when we went out to get more materials.. we are already some walking zombies, now u gave us this weather.. they don'te sell my colourful matchsticks.. and they don'te sell her paper clay.. cabbed to artfriend again.. buy her clay, buy artcut,buy cloth, buy saw, buy stick.. cabbed back to her house.. so tiring.. do and do till jasper came with rene.. helped her spray her clay and stick made my fingers look as though its polished.. keep on doing, while she do her horse.. went to sim lim tower with jasper coz she said that they might sell spring.. they do but very small.. we couldnt understand each other.. thats the next demoralising thing..sigh..
jasper and rene left, while we are still doing till like 7 plus, i couldnt take it.. i need to sleep.. so we went to bed.. slept till 11pm..
most demoralising part is happening.. her clay horse crack badly.. i don'te know hw to sew my spider.. we went into the room, smoked.. think.. depressed and demoralised.. we decided that we did our best.. so we'll stop and shall not go school..
suddenly i felt naseous, so did her.. she thinks that we should eat porridge.. so i was sitting down at the dinning table.. i was looking at her cooking porridge, and cutting mango.. and we talked... it was nice though its just instant.. i felt the warmth.. watched malcom in the middle, felt asleep..
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