love is in the air ♥

well, i feel very bastard for making u cry on our anni.
now u are scared of me.
well i seriously think i was too demanding.
why wouldnt u want to slap me?
i think i deserve such slaps.
but if anyone wanna slap me,
tell me, scold me, then slap.
haven i always been very bastard lately?
wats gotta into me?
* miscommunications everywhere.
why? i talk mars?
or i heard aliens?
nothing always goes your way.
seriously it doesnt goes my way lately.

sweets, now i know wat u want.
so its me
thats adding too much to myself i guess
thinking too much i guess.
and donnoe whats with my attitude.
been very mean lately.
how?
maybe i should go for yoga or clubbing
wat extreme things.
haha
i want to be as sweet as possible towards you.
i want u to feel very loved.
(i want to feel loved too)
sweets, don be so generous abt me can?
be selfish.
if u reallie want to see me.
tell me
i wont find u irritating.
if u don'te.
i will feel that u don even care.

scold me.
be ANGRY if u need to
i don mind.

the kiss of imu at 7:29 AM .

i was shocked to even receive your blessings.
seriously.
thinking back.
i felt rather or very petty not to send u my best wishes.
well, its over for such a long time.
i think its been long forgotten.
bad thoughts should be put behind.
thanks, fren.
i wont turn away when i see you on streets.
take care.
much misses.

well im highly sensitive.
be careful with words.
well im happily attached.
i don need ppl to say such things to me.
coz its not funny matter.
well if im not attached.
maybe u can say smth like that.
i donnoe whats lies beneath the future.

i didnt reallie mean to avoid such things.
i just don like such 'blessings' from them.
thats why i say i don want to spend cny in sing next yr and the following other yrs.
you won't understand.
probably u never ever get humilated
or looked down.
i also want a happy cny.
nevermind, u don understand.
i wont blame.
becoz u never stand in other's shoe to think.

the kiss of imu at 7:11 AM .

well after that night i actuallie added a few stress towards my sweetheart. made her cry like several times, faz first time scold me bastard.
we'll i cant keep having the thinking that i must be the one that always take care of ppl.
i need care too. we'll i will stop pushing ur care away.
let's give each other time to get to know each other better.
i just hope u can be more observant.
sorry that im a weirdo.
lets work our future out.
sweets, choose the same course as me.
she's trying to snatch my bowl.
omg!! haha.
well, my sweets is smart. hope she can do well.
she have been very stress out lately.
shld pamper her more.
must be a real darling.
nowadays feeling very lethargic.
if i keep feeling this i cant do my work
nor concentrate man.
maybe i shld follow the ancient way
tie my hair up the celling.
so when i fall asleep while drawing
it will pull my hair back.
haha. its time to torture myself.
i don want to do my work last min anymore.
i hate it

i want to get out of here!
stupid foundation.

This is my first valentine day spending with my gf.
im happy and sad.
becoz lessons ends at 7. (which i might not be going)
i haven make anything for her yet.
coz she said we are not gonna celebrate it.
we'll postpone it to our anniversary.
but it falls on cny eve
how can i celebrate with you like that?
sigh.....

the kiss of imu at 6:23 AM .

i want u to understand me.
but it seems like im not opening myself up i guess.
not that i don want
im used to observing.
i can tell u many things. but u still wont know who i reallie am.
i cant tell you everything.
cause im a weird. seriously.
i even confuse myself up.
i can tell you i might not eat this, i might do this.
ended up i might do it and eat it.
but i didnt mean to contradict.
its me.
i donnoe how to explain myself.

the kiss of imu at 8:48 AM .