love is in the air ♥

off today. supposed to meet sha sha. but she didnt pick up my call, neither did she replied my msg ytd. woke up around ten plus, lay on the sofa, watching the time past. till like 12, i decided to call her. to prolly wake her up, she sounds very weak, she told me she's sick. so i said lets meet out for lunch, just near her house, cause i know she are'nt feeling well, and my protection is with her. i don'te know is it coincidence or wat, i just withdrew money and the bus is here. when i was checking the time, the other bus to her house is here too. everything was so smooth though. waited a while, i saw her pale look, really looked very sick. chat a bit asked her how's the trip and everything. she got me some tarts. prolly it was'nt easy getting it, cause they were always in the hotel. after lunch, asked her whether she wanna see the doc. so yup, went to doc. she's having fever though. saw this very cute dog.. so cute so small.. she insisted on working. so yup i let her be. im worried. seriously worried.
pls take care..

the kiss of imu at 7:14 AM .

im seating in mac now. trying to blog. don know what to blog though. feel like convincing my mom so i could leave the country. as in with her, i couldnt find anyone else that could. i want to have a gathering during christmas with my chickens. but it doesnt seems that appealing as i donnoe everyone's free or do they wanna face each other. its very political.im also afraid some might not turn up. if new year, i have to count my stocks and do the necessarily things. kinda bad day.

i actuallie found the course i wanna take, just have to let mom know thats all.

i tear before i slept ytd.
i miss you so much. can i even tell you that?
sigh.....
don force me to take that ring out.
let me do it myself.
i know when im ready.

the kiss of imu at 1:23 AM .

am trying to blog now. been drinking and smoking quite alot these few days. been thinking abt you too. the last look of you, engraved deeply into my head. still missing you. upon that, been very concentrated with work. truely missing you very badly, but heard that tone just now. seems like there aren't much chances for us. there's nothing much i could do. feelings will fade i guess. but still gonna wait. i will still wear the ring till i know i have totally put you down. till i know i could reallie be your fren, thats when i will face you. the rest just let fate, god whoever decides then.
just went to prata session with douglas my new manager, rina my new collegue and ivy my new manager trainee. wow, i learn alot from them though, starting to like my new collegue. the way she do work. brains not working, tired man. oh josh, joining me at bishamon. cool right. he's getting more and more fit though. i think its time to hit the gym too. flabby everywhere. haha. he said, he will whack me, i said bring it on. i wanna have healthy and nice muscles. pardon me, my brains kinda sleepy.

i don remember much abt wat i wanna blogged.
take care
i know u wanna be alone.
i wont harass or pester you.
don'te feel like joining kfc.
but if i don'te,
no reasons to go down and maybe see you.
wat shld i do.

oh am looking forward to 31th cause its my last day being a full timer. will be the most hectic day too. let's have some fun on that day too. thought of learning how to be a bartender. since im interested in wine and liquor. made up mind to go take my theory next yr jan. get it done and over.

the kiss of imu at 8:42 AM .

Im just staring in the screen, cause I couldn’t connect into my blog. Tears kept dripping down my face. Heart hurts a lot. Playing music that I shouldnt played. The music of us. You are my everything, you know? Baby. I can no longer call you that. You don belong to me already. I asked her a lot of things. Whether can I this or that. Im asking too much. While talking to her, the cab ad puts Jaywalking kills. I felt like letting the cars bang me. Fly and bye everyone. That’s the end of me. No hurt no pain. Im selfish. But I didn’t been thru smth like that before. Not that long. Its going to be our anni soon. It’s the between the 7th to 8th dec.
this was wat i wanted to blog previously.

tears still dripping though. actuallie i had this feeling after wat happened to cyrus. got this feeling that you will leave me. im just trying to lie to myself that its not. you broke the lie, because you wouldnt want to hurt me no more. but it reallie hurts to know the truth.
don leave me will you, i feel so fragile w/o you.

the kiss of imu at 8:30 AM .